The stupid chou wugui

2008-10-20T09:26:00.001+08:00

I had my best birthday...... : )
More updates coming here..
http://jiostar.livejournal.com

Titanic II

2008-10-17T08:53:00.002+08:00

Haha did anybody enjoyed the old school songs in the previous entry?
I guess not... My blog is usually quite dead...
But I actually kept listening to the songs myself.
Especially addicted to "Bye bye bye" and "It's gonna be me" by N S'ync.
I still can remember some of the dance steps for "Bye bye bye" when the we performed during Girl Guide's ROD in Secondary One or Two.

Well it's Friday and tomorrow will be my party.
I am quite calm now, not much feelings.
(Maybe it's because I have prepared most of my stuff already)
Haha, maybe I will get nervous tomorrow.

Oh I almost forgot, I came to blog actually because I want to show this trailer!!!!
TITANIC II

Old school songs

2008-10-12T19:41:00.000+08:00

Old School

2008-10-11T14:34:00.002+08:00

I am going to move my blog early this year, if you noticed I seldom blog lately.

I guess quite a lot of people are troubled over what to buy for me since I didn't state what I want except to my sister, Dad and Mum.
FYI, my sister gave me a DKNY perfume, my Dad gave me a key design necklace from Citigems and my Mum will be giving me a red packet.
But seriously, my greatest gift will be all of my invitees' attendances.
I hope that the people whom I invite will all be there, especially during my cake-cutting session at 9pm.
As the time seems to be nearer, I am getting nervous, fearing that something will go wrong.

For those who are still troubled over what to get for me, just get me something that even if I spoiled it, I still can keep it since it is my 21st. HAHA
It don't have to be expensive, especially when I don't really like branded stuff.
If you really really really have no idea what to get me, let me know, I can drop you some hints. : ]
Look forward to see all of you that day.

2008-10-04T08:57:00.000+08:00

我已经开始慢慢振作起来了。

Even though it is far from what I initially wanted, I guess I should be
contented enough.
Now I am only afraid of last minute changes because people start to one
by one tell me that sorry they cannot make it though I know it will happen
somehow.
"Expect the unexpected" - I should be immune in this already.

保持通话is a very nice movie. : )

October is here

2008-10-02T00:46:00.004+08:00

Yes, like that wild lady says October is here.
Even though it means that my 21st is here but yet my excitement level is not as much as her.
Haha.

Happy Birthday to all October babies.

The Highlights of the Bangkok Trip

2008-09-24T16:47:00.008+08:00

We are back from Bangkok safe and sound. : )
The trip was fulfilling, we bought tons of stuff at a very cheap price.
My cousin was the ultimate winner (spender) and with him and my sister around, the trip was quite fun.
The night before, my cousin came over and the three of us did not sleep.
We took a Maxi cab at 4.30am and reached the airport Terminal One.

Note: We have only one trolley of luggage when we depart.

Our Jetstar flight departs at 7.10am Singapore Time.
The seats were very cramp but for a budget ride, no choice.

Samran Place Hotel (10 minutes walk from BTS station: Ratchathewi Station)
Website: http://www.samran.com/
We were quite shock when we first saw our hotel because it was really different from the photos we saw from the website.

It is really a budget hotel (only 8 levels)...
When you enter the lobby, it is the restaurant already.

BUT... To our surprise, the rooms and hotel are really cosy, comfortable and clean.
This is the first hotel that my sister and I could sleep immediately when we are on our beds.
Their service are up to standard and the free breakfast (from 7 choices, not buffet type) they provide everyday is really nice.
Photos of the Set 1 - American Breakfast (My favorite):

If we ever go to Bangkok again, that would be our hotel choice for sure. : )

Chatuchak Weekend Market (Also known as the J.J Market or Jatujak Market)
Operating Hours/Days: 9am to 6pm Friday to Sunday
How to get there: Take BTS (skytrain) to Mochit station or Subway (MRT) to Chatuchak Park Station
The market is damn BIG and crowded which means it is super duper warm.
Seriously I nearly fainted because it is too warm, tired and frustrating to walk in there.
We were lost all the while when we are there. LOL. "-_-
But that is the best shopping place for me because the things are very cheap and nice.
I bought 88% of my stuff there. : )

Platinam Wholesale Fashion Mall (5 minutes taxi ride from my hotel)
The things here are only cheap when you buy it at wholesale price (minimum 3 pieces) and they will not allow you to slash price when you buy only one item unlike when you are at Chatuchak.

But when you are here, you must try the food at the food court at the last level.
The food there are pretty good and cheap. : )
Note: They use the marche way of paying things.

My favorite Shark Fin soup : )

Siam Paragon's Bowling and KTV place (Beside it's cineplex)
Our last night there we actually wanted to watch a movie, but the price of the tickets are a little too steep.
So we went to this huge and beautiful place for bowling.
This place has a DJ and he plays clubbing songs (woohoo~) and the whole place is just like a club.
My sister, cousin and I even ask the DJ to play songs that we want to listen. : )
I asked him to play my favorite clubbing song - Let's get loud by J.Lo, and he did a pretty cool remix on it.

That's the DJ : )

Other Pictures

We are at CentralWorld Shopping Centre.

Cousins rocks : )

My Baobei and Ex-partner is also there... : )

These are what I bought...

See my bag of goods is full "-_-

I am with my favorite jacket and my Biao ge's boxing gloves...

My mum was so high when she is at Bangkok... Especially with shades...

Wonder whose Basketball is this right? Jay Chou's one... From Kungfu Dunk.. woohoo~

When we are going back at the airport.. We now have two trolley of luggages...

The most sian-half thing - MY HAIVANAS SNAPPED ON THE LAST DAY!!! "-_-

Away from 20th to 23rd...

2008-09-20T01:32:00.002+08:00

It is one plus in the morning now.
I will be on my way to the airport at 4.30am later with my parents, sister and biao ge.
I don't know to sleep or not. HAHA
So I will be away from the 2oth till the 23rd.
I will be back from Bangkok on Tuesday with presents. : )

By the way, I did not manage to book my uncle's condo's function room on the 18th October night for my birthday.
Some other people are more KS than us.
So... Let me think if there's other alternatives.

My first 21st bday gift

2008-09-13T13:47:00.003+08:00

My first 21st birthday gift this year - Key Pendant from my Father

In the end, I still choose this plain classic design even though ALL the others that I seek for advice commented that the heart-shaped unique design is better.
And even though I still have doubts about Citigems products, their key pendant designs are so far the nicest.
Furthermore, Northpoint's outlet is having 60% discount.
I am a very traditional person. Haha.
I shall only put this on on my 21st party/birthday. : )
Oh, I also bought this pooh using the voucher they gave.
Finally, this is the right size and I can hug it. LOL. (If you can recall, last year my Dad bought me a super huge one)

CUTE RIGHT?!

215的约定

2008-09-13T02:04:00.003+08:00

All these days at work, I tune in to Yes 93.3 every single day until I end work.
I am now very attracted to this radio drama they have now - 215的约定.
I always listen to this story at least twice a day not due to the storyline but it is because of this song and this voice. LOL.
Even though this song is very common and old already but Diya's version of this song actually touches me. : )

Chu Mo - Chen Diya

Shopping list

2008-09-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

And so my Bangkok trip will resume despite whatever that is happening now.
I just need to find an insurance company who is willing to insure us there but it seems that most companies no longer insure people there. "-_-
I shall not go into detail on the bad luck parts and all other unlucky stuff happening to me lately.

Well, I have a huge shopping list in mind.
My priorities are always the gifts. (I shall not list out who I want to give it to first just in case I ran out of money. lol)
I want to buy all these in different colors/types provided if it is really cheap. LOL
Cardigens, Jackets, Tubes, T-shirts, Dresses, Accessories etc.

I have something wild in mind...
But I think I will be slapped...
HAHA...

Every problem is worth laughing

2008-09-08T21:47:00.003+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Every problem is worth laughing because fate and destiny is playing with you.
Sometimes when you encounter something bad, think it in a funny way.

Bye bye ipod~

2008-09-01T17:17:00.004+08:00

I had been sighing whole day about my unlucky life and I am very angry of myself.
FYI, I lost my ipod!
Don't ask me why, where, how because I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!!!
I found it MISSING! GONE! Just like that!
And it is not about losing my favorite gadget and the love of my life (music).
It is my 20th birthday gift from my YT clique and BF clique so even if I buy a new one, it is not the same anymore.
Initially I blogged to curse the idiot who picked up my ipod to have nobody to celebrate birthday with forever but I decide not to be nasty anymore because it is also my fault and retribution to be careless. Sigh.
If he/she is someone nasty, he/she will get their own karma.

Apologies to Madeline, Siming, Limin, Kelvin, ChunYing, Xixi, Rubber, Liping, Kenny, Angel, Angelia, Shevon, Yixiang, Jackson, Weiqiang, Weiling and Joseph.

My luck is still not there because Thailand is having riots, bombings and political unrest. Darn!

All or nothing~

2008-08-30T10:18:00.003+08:00

One back-dated photo (My best pal's 21st Birthday Celebration)

Well, apart from the celebration on Sunday at Yixing Xuan, we gave her a little surprise on her actual birthday by popping by at her place with a birthday cake.
In the end, because we were too noisy preparing outside, she knew that we were here and still have to pretend and wait for us to knock on her door. HAHA "-_-

I hate to admit that I have to retake.
It is kind of embarrassing to have studied before, a B&F student somemore, and to fail the exam.
I need more hard work and concentration.
But this was the first time I was so upset about failing.

And it is even more discouraging to start all over again (not referring to my M9).
It has been a very long time since I vexed over this issue.
I have never seen such depressing figures in my life for a very long time already. HAHA
I guess those days are over... Sigh!
Now I totally understand why did he become what he is now. LOL.

SUCKS

2008-08-28T00:06:00.002+08:00

Time is running short and I am still not starting.
Sometimes I really don't understand what I am thinking.
I always had the mindset of not giving up but my actions are like retards.
I NEED TO OVERCOME MYSELF!!!!!!!

Anyway, I am sooooooooo going to watch this next week. Haha.
Go ahead and laugh that I am childish but this is one of my favourite drama okay.
From comics to taiwan series to japanese series to animation to the short stories, I love them all. : )
But it seems like nobody wants to watch with me, never mind, I shall make it my third "alone" movie.

And I have watched Money No Enough 2..
And I have a decision..
It is either I commit suicide before I turn old (LOL) or I will book a place at the old folk's home myself when I retire. HAHA

Phobia

2008-08-24T02:16:00.001+08:00

Home after the movie, 4bia (Thailand scary movie)
This is the first time I screamed at the theatre. (Haha usually I only jump)
I really freaked out. “-_-
On my way home, I kept pondering about the 4 storylines. LOL.
In case you seldom take night riders, apart from the NRs by Transitlink, the SBS Transit also have night riders now.

Though I know I should not be grumbling because I made a mistake of miscalculating my exam date.
I know, my fault, serve me right.
But even if I studied, I don’t have the confidence of scoring 75 and above.
I will try my best.

A few events lately…
Jack’s birthday party organized by Peiying at Chijmes

August Babies birthday celebration with my Secondary classmates which I reunite with lately at Mind’s Café where I was quite surprised when I was the only girl attending that night with 10 over guys (Some which are not my classmates) “-_- I just feel a bit extra.

Drinking at the Alley Bar with Angelia, Christy and Agnes

K at Chinatown’s Partyworld with Kenny and Angel where we chatted till almost dawn

Tomorrow should be the last event of this month, my best pal (Joey) birthday celebration.
We will be heading to Charlene’s teahouse. : )
Actually, I am quite apologetic because it seems that this year I did not put in enough efforts to plan most of the birthdays.
Furthermore, it is the 21st birthday of all my beloved friends but yet the birthdays seem just so plain. Sigh.
I think I shall put more effort and use more brain cells.

STUCK

2008-08-19T14:00:00.002+08:00

I feel stuck.

The second week

2008-08-15T13:57:00.001+08:00

I shall blog at my fastest speed so that I can go off to mug soon.

I know, after two whole weeks of resting, I finally mug right?

I was busy okay. Ha. [Attending a few days of Module 9 courses]

I had a gathering with my cousins (Debbie and Ah Sun) and sister on Wednesday night.

Brought them to steamboat at Mosque street and then we went to sing a short k at a KTV Pub.

It cost only 12bucks nett with a complimentary drink and some food.

Even though the sound system is not as good, the toilet is not as clean, the place is not as class, the staff is not that friendly, the songs are very new and furthermore, it is cheap.

Then yesterday went to watch 12 Lotus with Ah Sun and my sister.

It totally sucks, don’t ever think of wasting your money.

Today I have no programs, tomorrow night I have a gathering with my Secondary Four classmates.

Sunday, probably going to meet my Wugui to Sentosa and then maybe meeting my YT clique.

I suddenly have the urge of playing mahjong. Ha.

My last round was in July before Kenny’s party.

And I need a Part Time job asap. Anybody has any recommendations?

I need a job with flexible timing because I still have a lot of compulsory programs coming up.

I think it is very touching if a whole group can sing this song together.
Each allocated a part to sing. HAHA. I am dreaming again.
FYI, this song is 12plus minutes long.
I finally found a song which is longer than the Beijing Huan Ying Ni Song. LOL.

古巨基 - 情歌王

(Song: Forever love - 王力宏)
爱你不是因为你的美而已
我越来越爱你
每个眼神触动我的心

(Song: 两个人的烟火 - 黎明)
最爱你的是我
否则你怎麽让我
否则我怎麽可能赴汤蹈火
你说什麽都做

(Song: 如果．爱 - 张学友)
如果这就是爱
在转身就该勇敢留下来
就算受伤就算流泪
都是生命里温柔灌溉

(Song: 童话 - 光良)
我要变成童话里
你爱的那个天使
张开双手
变成翅膀守护你
你要相信
相信我们会像童话故事里

(Song: 很爱很爱你 - 刘若英)
往更多幸福的地方飞去
很爱很爱你只有让你拥有爱情
我才安心

(Song: 我愿意 - 王菲)
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名
只要你真心拿爱与我回应
我什麽都愿意　为你

(Song: 好想好想 -古巨基)
好想好想　好想好想
好想好想和你在一起

(Song: 明天我要嫁给你了 - 周华健)
明天我要嫁给你啦
明天我要嫁给你啦
要不是你问我
要不是你劝我
要不是适当的时候你让我心动

(Song: 不得不爱 - 潘玮柏/弦子)
天天都需要你爱
我的心思由你猜
i love you
我就是要你让我每天都精彩

(Song: 阴天 - 莫文蔚)
开始总是分分钟
都妙不可言
谁都以为热情它永不会减
总之那几年
感性赢了理性那一面

(Song: 飞机场的10:30 - 陶喆)
baby baby baby baby　
O　baby　baby O　baby
是不是拥有以後就会开始要失去
我给你的越多
你却越想要躲
爱已无法回答所有的问题

(Song: 那麽爱你为什麽 - 黄品源/莫文蔚)
离开你是傻是对是错
是看破是软弱
这结果是爱是恨或者是什麽

(Song: 你怎麽舍得我难过 - 黄品源)
最爱你的人是我
你怎麽舍得我难过
对你付出了这麽多
你却没有感动过

(Song: 爱我别走 - 张震岳)
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

(Song: 让我欢喜让我忧 - 周华健)
就请你给我多一点点时间
再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间
再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受

(Song: 原来你什麽都不想要 - 张惠妹)
原来你什麽都不想要
我不要你的承诺
不要你的永远
只要你真真切切爱我一遍
就算虚荣也好,贪心也好
最怕你把沉默,当做对我的回答
原来你什麽都不想要

(Song: 用心良苦 - 张宇)
你说你想要逃
偏偏注定要落脚
情灭了爱熄了
剩下空心要不要

(Song: 祝福 - 张学友)
伤离别离别虽然在眼前
说再见再见不会太遥远
若有缘有缘就能期待明天
你和我重逢在灿烂的季节

(Song: 吻别 - 张学友)
我和你吻别在无人的街
让风痴笑我不能拒绝
我和你吻别在狂乱的夜
我的心等着迎接伤悲

(Song: 把悲伤留给自己 - 陈昇)
能不能让我陪着你走
既然你说留不住你
回去的路有些黑暗
担心让你一个人走

(Song: 征服 - 那英)
就这样被你征服切断了所有退路
我的心情是坚固我的决定是糊涂

(Song: 听海 - 张惠妹)
听海哭的声音
叹惜着谁又被伤了心

(Song: 味道 - 辛晓琪)
像你身上的味道
我想念你的吻
和手指淡淡烟草味道
记忆中曾被爱的味道

(Song: 我怀念的 - 孙燕姿)
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以後
还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

(Song: 领悟 - 辛晓琪)
我多麽痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚任意追逐
别再为爱受苦

(Song: 月亮惹的祸 - 张宇)
都是你的错在你的眼中
总是藏着让人又爱又怜的朦胧
都是你的错你的痴情梦
像一个魔咒
被你爱过还能为谁蠢动

(Song: 我们的爱 – F.I.R)
我们的爱
过了就不再回来
直到现在
我还默默的等待
我们的爱
我明白
已变成你的负担
只是永远
我都放不开
最後的温暖

(Song: 你把我灌醉 - 黄大炜)
你把我灌醉你让我流泪
扛下了所有罪我拚命挽回
你把我灌醉你让我心碎
爱得收不回

(Song: 眼泪 - 范晓萱)
oh 眼泪
眼泪都是我的体会
成长的滋味
oh 眼泪
忍住眼泪不让你看见
我在改变
孤单的感觉
你从不曾发现
我笑中还有泪

(Song: 情非得已 - 庾澄庆)
只怕我自己会爱上你
不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什麽能够给你
爱你也需要很大的勇气

(Song: 你是如此难以忘记 - 梁朝伟)
你是如此的难以忘记
浮浮沉沉的在我心里
改变自己需要多少勇气
翻腾的心情该如何平息

(Song: 心太软 - 任贤齐)
你总是心太软心太软
把所有问题都自己扛
相爱总是简单相处太难
不是你的就别再勉强

(Song: Forever love - 王力宏)
forever love forever love
我只想用我这一辈子去爱你
从今以後
你会是所有
幸福的理由
forever love
forever love
forever love

Bridal Gowns

2008-08-10T23:43:00.003+08:00

Sunday signifies that I have already slacked for one full week. Ha.
Yesterday I met up with my ex-colleagues from BNP and proceeded to Changi, their usual BBQ place.

Today, I looked at a great deal of beautiful Wedding Dresses.
I still feel that bridal gowns are the prettiest clothing for women.
Disney Bridal collection

I feel that this model is very pretty, especially in this gown...
Something for Shevon...

Specially designed for Princess Ariel from The Little Mermaid...
A very simple, classic and elegant gown...
Definitely for Rubber...

Specially designed for Princess Belle from Beauty and the Beast...
For Angelia maybe... : )

Specially designed for Princess Jasmine from Aladdin...
This is definitely for girls like Angel...

Another Belle gown..
This is for Hazel..

Wedding Fashion Singapore collection

This gown is named Josephine and this is my favourite amongst all that I have seen today...
Personally I feel that this will look good in Mad though I think she will prefer something like below. HAHA

It is named Aimee. A gown with character... I think this will look good in Weiling...

Elizabeth gown... For Xixi.. haha

Grace gown... For Limin...

Snow White gown... For my sister.. haha

Something random, I realize that I have planned far more than 60 events and birthdays.
WHAO! Amazing right?

9.30am to 5.30pm M9 classes for three days...

Something sweet but funny

2008-08-08T18:22:00.003+08:00

HAHA something sweet but funny "-_-

joannekoo "-_- nostalgic + complacent + lazy says (6:19 PM):
wugui
dont get too far away from my life
LOLX
mad:- says (6:19 PM):
....
i am always here with u in ur shell

The rest of the conversation is P&C. HAHA
I love my darling wugui : )

Na xi wa wu ji ba ban! LOLX

2008-08-06T18:52:00.001+08:00

其实我真的很怀疑我自己到底行不行。
没有家人的支持，没有好友的鼓励，看不到未来的路，我的选择是对的吗?
现在的我只能相信只要肯努力，只要够坚定坚持相信自己的信念，总有一天我会受到肯定。
老天阿!拜托，让我知道我的选择是对的吧!

Though I have an amount of savings now, but still, sometimes I wish I strike lottery and all troubles will be gone.
If I have one million dollars, I will
1.Pay off the debts that my family owe to my uncles
2.Pay off my Polytechnic debt
3.Pay off my university fees
4.Pay off my apartment installment for my parents
5.Buy a gift each that they request for my parents, sister, Black Friday clique, YT clique, close cousins plus buy one dozen of Xiao Lao Ban for Christy and a dozen of Oreo for Agnes. HAHA
6.Treat all of the above to a sumptuous dinner
7.Donate an amount to charity
8.Go Taiwan and Hong Kong for a week
9.Learn driving
10.Buy a family car and a GPS because I think I need it. HAHA
11.Save the rest of the money

加油吧邱怀娇!

2008-08-05T00:41:00.002+08:00

好久没有用中文写文章了，一时心血来潮，有感而发。
没上班的日子非常悠闲，轻松。
真的很希望能一直这样过无忧无虑的日子。
好不容易终于决定抛下一切，勇敢的，自私的走出我人身第一份全职。
可是还是忍不住会回想，会担心，会叹气，心里还是会责怪自己太自私，把那重担交给了她。
我知道她很辛苦，也很无奈，所以我很愧疚。
很想问候她，想知道她还好吗，可是却缺乏勇气。
唉!为什么我总是缺乏勇气，缺乏自信?
好讨厌我自己喔。。。
现在的我也即将决定我未来的路，可是可笑的是因为又少了以上那两件所以又犹豫不决。
真糟糕。。。哈哈，我很可笑吧?
真的很希望我就像杂草一样，越龊越勇，有那种永不放弃的精神。
加油吧邱怀娇! 哈哈。。。

All of that is over

2008-08-04T00:05:00.004+08:00

My job ended with a dinner at Shokodu with my department colleagues, lunch at South Bank with my team and the heads, Emeal with Agnes, a Korean restaurant with Selina, Muthu Curry with Anil and Ian, a Vietnamese restaurant with my VPs, Da wan zhou with Kest, a pink rose from Violet, chocolates from the guys, Awfully chocolate cake from CRI SCOs plus a volunteer trip to be back last Friday morning to teach the new staff without getting paid.
All of the waiting for nothing OTs, the getting pissed for being blamed for what we are not responsible for, the nasty self centered people, the depression of over-tearing is now all over.
But I have started to miss all the people whom I have placed feelings for.
It is just like what I have been through when I get separated from those whom I meet almost every single day. [Primary to Secondary to Motorola to Polytechnic till now]
My future lies on my decision now and also whether I am confident enough to do it or not.
Let me rest for awhile first.

Some back dated events and pictures.
My Wu gui darling’s 21st birthday celebration – dinner at a Thai restaurant in Yishun, the drinking board game and Twister at my house, the CK watch Sushi cake self-made board game self-made card self-made candle board as gifts.
Please forgive those imperfect details, my dear. Apart from that, hope you enjoyed. : )

Free tickets to Duck Tour with my Dad last Friday (Thanks to uncle derrick) - went to Singapore Flyer to take Duck Tour.
LOLX I know it sounds weird, the flyer is so beautiful, I would definitely take that the next time I go there.

Saturday Celebration for my mum's birthday – Dinner at Mandarin Oriental’s Melt the World Café with my parents, sister and her boyfriend.
The bill was stunning (S$524.95 before a 15% discount from my UOB debit) but that was not the reason for my unhappiness.
Sigh, forget it, I shall not say.
Apart from that, the food was good and quality up to standard.
Besides, their service was excellent!! The best hotel service I have experienced so far. (Compared to so many hotel buffet trips I have been to)
And as a bonus, we got to view the fireworks from the NDP preview held just in front of the hotel. LOLX

Random

2008-07-30T00:14:00.002+08:00

HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS HAIS (*Echoing...)

Does these reminds you of a Macdonalds advertisement? (*Make a guess)
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Okay I know I sound mad, drunk and crap...
HAHA... I dont know how to describe my feelings now.
It is not that I have terrible things to vex about and neither the cause of my madness is because I have got none to trouble at all.
Maybe I am just tired of living.
Somebody save me!

Random:
My parents, my sister, Ah Sun biao ge and I are going to Bangkok from September 20th to 23rd "-_- when I rejected my colleagues to go on almost the same dates. So I will still see them there. HAHA (oops sorry Hazel... haha.. just read your blog)

Yixing Xuan Teahouse ~ Loves

2008-07-27T14:58:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was a really happy day.
Christy, Agnes, Angelia and I went to Charlene’s family’s Yixing Xuan Teahouse to taste the art of tea.
And I am really a great fan of tea and also the art of tea!
At first we thought that only the tea will be superb, but to our delight (especially Christy’s), the food there are delicious too. : )
I was so high taking pictures over there of all the beautiful teapots and cups (I look like a damn tourist), trying all the various teas and food.
Even their “bubble tea” is nice too because they use their own tea leaves to make the tea so it is not like what you have outside.
I just feel like buying the whole shop. HAHA
Definitely will go back there again and of course bring more people there.

The Address:
No. 30/32 Tanjong Pagar Road Singapore 088453
Telephone:
62246961/62261646/63244780
Website:
www.yixingxuan-teahouse.com

Next up will be updates on Madeline's birthday!! : )

Anyway Happy 21st Birthday rubber!!!!!!!

July events Part 1

2008-07-27T14:00:00.004+08:00

More photos and updates coming up...

Let me fade away~

2008-07-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

Another week has past and 9 more freaking days to end of work.
Everyone kept questioning me “What I want to do next?”
And my answer will always be “I don’t know!”
Not that I have not give this a thought, it is just that I am afraid of stepping into the wrong route again.
I certainly do not wish to make a hasty decision again.

At times one really hopes that I never said this, I never said that.
Sometimes, there may be no obligation to whatever that was said.
But it may just indirectly cause people to dislike some things and no matter how much one tried to salvage, people just could not get off the impression of what was once told.
It is just like you killed someone, there will always be a criminal record.
Moral: Always think of the consequences before you speak or maybe one shall not speak at all

Kenny said to me this morning that I am the wrong person to be sober.
The thing that is ironic is I only lose my phone when I am sober!
Gosh! Angel even amazingly looked at me and said why I seem to feel nothing.
I guess I was too busy at that moment and I knew there was no hope at all to retrieve my phone back.
Upset because I lost all my contacts, I lost my favorite phone (K810i) and I need to spend money again.
Argh! Everything just sucks! I can foresee all the naggings coming again which I think will make me feel worse.
I just feel like isolating myself but I cannot.

Rants

2008-07-11T19:33:00.001+08:00

Should I say TGIF or should I not say TGIF?
Sigh, yes, this is my second entry of the day.
I am bored to death over here, though I still have lots of filing and reports to do but I definitely won’t want to OT because I am doing that, what's more it is a Friday.
My darn superiors sitting above just could not understand why we always call on time to let them release us.
They just love to see us waiting aimlessly, accompanying them doing overtime for nothing.
I rather not earn that money to exchange for my freedom.
They kept claiming that both departments should work as a family but I think people from other department treats us better, not all of them though.
They will always rant at us when they could not rant at their opponents.
Same goes to their opponents, rant at us, when they could not rant at them.

Anyway I am really grateful to Angelia for saving me, sacrificing her nights when she have to OT because I need to go off for school.. Thanks : )

14 last days~

2008-07-11T13:54:00.000+08:00

I have been very diligently trying to blog during work but I always cannot finish writing and I have to close my monitors.
My (hopefully) final 14 days of work!!
Angelia and I are certainly looking forward to it as we have NO MOOD TO WORK AT ALL!
But we are both going to miss all the great peeps over here.
Examples:
My ex-bhb-crap-nosiest-always teasing me-yaya-always eating-partner, Ms Christy Chua
My cute-black and white lover-perfectionist virgo-baobei, Ms Agnes Kiang
The always laughing-very adorable-my “ancestor”-nui nui, Ms Kemmy Wong
My always very helpful-always taking care of me-always teasing people-forced by the others to be my kor kor (brother), Mr. Colin Toh
The most gorgeous-elegant, Ms Charlene
The very caring da hun hun, Ms Violet Koh
The very cute-always eating cai fan, Mr. Ooi
The super nice bosses from CRI, Selina Kenneth and Grace
My overseas super nice colleagues, Vivek (India), Mr. Pradip Singh (India), Supanich (Bangkok), Jarunee (Bangkok)
Kest, Elaine, Siew Chin, Helen, Poh Nee, Waipeng and of course also all the others that we know…

And I have a few lunch and dinner dates/treats.
Just now Anil from the business line treats Angelia, Christy and I to Suntec’s Muthu Curry for lunch.
He is a very nice and fun guy actually from India.
Next week I have lunch appointment with my department head and VP and also with Kest.
The week after will be lunch with Agnes and dinner with my colleagues.
I still have one more pending lunch with another team’s VP.
Then two birthday celebration coming up also - Rubber’s and my darling’s
Clubbing and hopefully more KTVs!
And school…
I am so tired and sleepy every since school started on Tuesday.
Have difficulties waking up in the morning for work and also staying conscious during lessons.
I kept sleeping in class and in work.

I still have a lot of bills and letters to settle. “-_-
[School, hospital bills, birthdays, events etc.]

So to conclude, I am going to be super duper broke.
My savings will be gone pretty soon.
Furthermore I just settled my payment for the shares.

Sometimes I really feel that I am a very greedy and not a simple person.
Why can’t everybody be happy?

Kenny's 21st birthday

2008-07-07T19:18:00.006+08:00

I really don’t know how to blog this entry.
What shall I start with first?
Saturday was Kenny’s 21st birthday party, it was fun but the after effect I ~~had~~ am having now sucks.
I swear I did not expect myself to be totally gone that day.
I just wanted to be high. HAHA
But I guess my estimation was wrong and AGAIN, I caused a lot of trouble for those who are sober.
So I want to quit drinking, I know I cannot quit totally, but at least, unless under special circumstances, I will not allow myself to be gone again.
It is really scary to wake up the next day, wondering where I was, trying to recall what happen.
This time round, it seems to be worse than my 19th birthday, furthermore I didn’t drink a lot this time.
[4 tequila shots, 2 tequila pops and 2 shared mixers]
Apart from the gone part, the party was great!
Took a lot of pictures and I became Kenny’s photographer. HAHA
But I forget to film down the process when he got thrown into the water by his brothers.
I was too engrossed watching and laughing at him. HAHA
But I did film down how Jack, Qiang and Zijian got thrown into the pool.
Then Kenny got challenged by people to drink as expected and it was really funny.
The way he twisted the games, makes me scared of challenging him. LOLX
Then after cutting the cake, we cab down to Double O.
Their Mambo is great especially the choice of their songs.
Okay, what happen next shall not be posted. LOL.

Happy Birthday Kenny!

The Green Team of BF: BJP, Jack and Boon

The Pink Team of BF: SHE, Ken and Qiang

The Black Friday team...

The Birthday Boy and me...

Kenny, Darling and me...

More photos here

I want to thank all those that have helped me that night.

Anyway today is Boon and Chai Ching's birthday.. Happy Birthday!

Guys?

2008-07-04T17:55:00.001+08:00

I saw Angelia blogging behind so I came to blog too. HAHA
Seriously I don’t feel like working at all.
But my last day is still 4 weeks away, on the ~~30th July~~ 31st July.

Em… What should I talk about today? Haha
Oh yes, recently I was pondering about why I seem to have lost interest in guys.
LOLX. In the past, I will get high and hook when I watch those actors who are cute and/or suave in dramas but now, though I still watch those dramas, I will not have the feeling anymore.
Have I turned into a lesbian? HAHA
Or maybe because those suave-sweet-good guys are so far away from being found in this real world.
If they really exist, they most probably are married or attached or maybe hidden somewhere in the other side of the world. HAHA
But sometimes I really don’t understand myself at all.

Persistent=A blessing in disguise

2008-07-02T14:02:00.001+08:00

I never knew that I have so many great people around me, willing to go all the way to help me even though I did not ask them to.
So I feel blissful and grateful to them even though some I may not remember or have lost contact or are not even close to at all.
Maybe it is a blessing in disguise (from the efforts I have put in)! : )
I guess being persistent is one of my new found strength also.

back to work...

2008-06-30T00:59:00.001+08:00

Back to work, I received lots of concern from my colleagues.
Most of them did not notice I was back because I was busy clearing my stuff.
Work seems peaceful, maybe it is still honeymoon period, and my pro-partner Angelia has been coping very well with Secretariat scope. : )

The day before I went back to work, I went to sing k twice. HAHA
In the afternoon, my mum dragged me to the community centre to sing with her.
At first I thought there will only be oldies but surprisingly, their songs are quite updated.
And I must emphasize it is very stress to sing there, the aunties are all experts.
[I don’t even have the courage to sing on stage. HAHA]
Then at night, I went to Partyworld with Kenny and Angelia.

Friday, all of us knocked off early, I was so excited and decided to travel all the way to Sengkang to look for Angel and Madeline just to have dinner with them. LOLX
Okay, I may seem crazy but I had nothing else in mind.

Saturday night, initially decided to miss the Secondary Four classmates gathering as they invited other people.
They called me at 8plus just to invite me over again, so I went.
Well, I am glad that I went.
Manage to see and catch up with Jinpeng, Thomas, Sweemeng, Songming, Yammeng, Jone, Huiping and Guilin.
And the guys, Huiping and I went to k at Yishun Partyworld.
We went to the biggest room (21) and got 15percent off!!

After I started to sing again, I never stop. LOLX
I am so happy to be able to sing again though they felt that my voice is back but I know it is different.
I mean the method that I used to sing is different and the skills seem to be lost somewhere.
It is okay, as long as I can still sing, I am contented already. : )

Oh, and today, I went shopping in town with Agnes and Kemmy.
I have never been so diligently shopping and I bought a purple dress and a bag.
Ever since I have decided to change, I did a lot of investment and I certainly hope that everything is worth it.
Though I have been questioning whether my actions are too overboard as my mindset is very different from the past.
I don’t feel like myself anymore.

23rd June...

2008-06-23T21:57:00.002+08:00

I was practically rotting every single day at home because I was confined by my mum.
I did sneak out occasionally to run errands etc.

HAHA I do not understand what is so special about 23rd June because it seems like every event falls on this day.

First, my bridging examination results, I am so ashamed of myself for scoring lower than Kenny since he has much lesser time to study than me. (I should be at least on par with him.)
Anyway, I am happy and proud of him. HAHA
I cleared all papers, B+ for Mathematics and C for Economics. (All modules one grade below what I should get. Sigh.)

I received my medical report today, went back for a checkup just now.
The disgusting lump (which those who have visited me saw the picture) is actually a tumor.
But luckily, it is benign; therefore I do not have to do another operation to take out my other half of my thyroid as long as the left side doesn’t grow bigger.

And I have got my pay! HAHA
So I went shopping with my mum at Bugis just now (bought two shorts) and treat her to dinner to Soup Restaurant.
Sad to say, I have only two more days left before I return to work and serve my last month.
Furthermore, Angelia is leaving already. : (

Last night, Joey, Hazel, Rubber, Xixi and I went to Chomp Chomp for dinner.
I was practically staring at the delicious food I ordered for them while eating my macaroni soup. LOLX
Then we went to Ice3 for dessert and some chit-chatting.
The waffle is darn nice over there. HAHA (Highly recommended)

Happy Birthday Xixi!

Photos click here

I have learnt how to make sushi... HAHA...
Next up should be either Knitting or Kickboxing lessons..

How many one are there?

2008-06-20T23:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes they just could not understand.
One does not speak up does not mean one feels nothing.
Half of the time one refuses to be the obedient self because it is tiring to maintain good, perform better and be the best.
But one’s instinct will always tilt to the other side so as to please them, or everyone.
A tiring life indeed but still, one rather see them happy than only one happy.
Changing the world is difficult, changing one to adapt is faster and less troublesome.
One's first concern is always them.

Prolonged work pain is damaging~

2008-06-17T22:24:00.002+08:00

Once there was a young woman who didn't like her job.
Everyday when she came home from work, she told her husband how terrible her day had been, how tiring the work and how unreasonable her boss.
'Leave that job,' her husband told her.
'Oh I will,' she said.
'But not yet. I have too many friends there for me to leave just yet.'

And so she complained until the days became years and her family grew to five.
'Leave that job,' her children told her.
'Oh I will,' she said.
'But not yet.I have seniority and four weeks vacation I can spend with you. I'm not ready to start over just yet.'

And so she remained unhappy at work until the years became decades and her children had children.
'Leave that job,' her grandchildren told her.
'Oh I will,' she said.
'But not yet. There's only seven more years until I reach thirty years of service and can retire. So I can't just yet.'

I know this woman.
And so do you.
And there are scores like her.

This reminds me of the story about an old dog half-asleep on the porch of the general store, moaning and groaning in the sun.
'Why is your dog acting that way?' a customer asked the store owner.
'Oh,' answered the man, 'he's lying on a nail.'
'Well, why doesn't he move?'
'Because it's not hurting him bad enough.'

That's true for people, too.
We convince ourselves the pain is not bad enough to leave the workplace we know.
But we're wrong.
Prolonged work pain is damaging.
Some damages our self-esteem, kills our passion or destroys our dreams.
Some emerges when we compromise our values, quiet our voice or hide our talent.
Some happens when we're seduced by power or believe our own myths of importance and significance.
Some occurs when we look the other way, say yes when we mean no or forfeit the promises we made to ourself.

Wilbur Wright, of the Wright brothers fame, once commented, 'We could hardly wait to get up in the morning.'
I know that exhilarating feeling of being so passionate about something I was working on that I couldn't wait to get back to work.
And people who are winning at working know that kind of passion, too.
They get excited about work.
They thrive offering their unique gifts and talents.
And when things change as they sometimes will, they refuse to let a soul-depleting boss or environment hijack their self-esteem, passion or dreams.
When work becomes work, they stop lying on a nail and do something about it.
- end of story

This story is not the reason why I made such a decision to my life today.
Neither the drama “Fated to love you” was the main reason for my choice.
I just feel that, I need to win myself.
I need to change!
I do not wish to succeed only when people have already retired.
Even though I may fail, or may not make it big, I am willing to take up the challenge.
I finally have the courage. : )
Hope that nothing goes wrong before I start, but first, let me settle my current mess.

Angelia's 21st bday

2008-06-15T15:49:00.004+08:00

I believe I am a very disobedient person because I always sneak out of my house when I am supposed to rest at home after my operation.
Limin knows me well. HAHA (Just like what happened after my right foot operation a few years back)
On Black Friday, I went to get the Swensens Ice Cream cake and sneaked back to office to give Angelia a surprise.

After that went to RELC with my Dad and realized I forget to bring my stupid original certificates which means I have to go down again. (It is so inaccessible!)
Then we went to watch “The Happening” and it sucks, seriously not recommended at all.
Saturday, Sentosa with these people and they played volleyball while I just sat on the sand and laugh at them playing. LOLX

Though how much I wish to join them to play but I know I cannot stand the pain.
Before the others come, Angelia and I played for merely 2 minutes and I know my body cannot take it already. “-_-
Then Angel, Qiang, Mad and I went to the rooftop of Vivo to slack while waiting for Angelia’s boyfriend to come.
Angel became our model of the day and this is the best picture taken. LOLX

Then Kenny, Qiang, Angel and Yixiang came to my house to play mahjong.

I have received lots of concerns on my health lately.
From the visits to the hospital and home by my parents, sister, Mad, Angel, Ah Sun, Limin, Joey, Rubber, Kelvin, Hazel, Ye Wei to the messages I received from all of the above plus Qiang, Kenny, Baobei, Christy, Angelia, Xixi, Debbie and Yixiang.
I think those who visited me in the hospital could see that I am feeling weak and in pain.
Indeed, I am very stunned from my ghostly looks (as if I have some terminal illness) from the reflections on the mirrors and photos.
But I am recovering very well even though I still have difficulty talking, swallowing and I really dread to sleep because of the pain.
Hopefully I can recover fully really soon!
I am really bored at home and sick of watching my diet especially when I am outside.
My parents are really making sure I do not anyhow eat at all.

And I have really been avoiding listening to songs so that I will not have the craving to sing.
Today is the sixth day without hearing myself sing, kind of not used to it.
I even dreamt of myself singing and it reflects how much I miss my vocal. Sigh.
To keep me occupied, I am watching lots of dramas and I was addicted to “Fated to love you”.
Highly recommended and I cried when watching Episode 12 (very heartbreaking can!)

Photos are being uploaded to my multiply! click here
Dinner and Dance, all the 21st birthdays and outings...

Picture of the day

Don't you think that they look more like they are playing basketball than volleyball? HAHA

home~

2008-06-12T14:50:00.001+08:00

Second day back home, I am bored to death.
Although I have dramas to watch but maybe it is because I feel really uncomfortable with the pain and also the difficulty to talk properly.
But I really prefer to be home than hospitalized.
All I do there is to feel more painful, sleepy and weaker.
Whatever I ate there was vomited out in split seconds.
The night there, I wake up every single hour to see the time and my hands numb, stomach hungry.
I am so glad to be home.

Eat all you can week.. HAHA

2008-06-10T00:02:00.004+08:00

I kept eating good food lately.
When my craving comes, I will search for it till I have it in my stomach. LOLX.

Thursday (whole day - one meal only)
- 2 bucks Economic Bee Hoon from Toa Payoh

Friday
Brunch - Ethan with Angelia and Christy - four six inches yummy sausages, three hungry girls, two rostis, one pasta...
Dinner - Si Chuan Steamboat at Mosque street for Colin's Farewell

Saturday
Brunch - Subway with Angel and Mad (SATC after that)
Dinner - Asian Kitchen - Fried rice, Guo Tie and Xiao Long Bao

Sunday
Breakfast - Egg Tarts
Lunch - Sakae Sushi Teppanyaki with Dad
Dinner - Early Father's Day celebration with parents - Yu Tou Lu, Tie Ban Dou Fu, Vegetable

Monday
Breakfast - Chicken mushroom pie
Lunch - Curry Chicken Noodles
Dinner - Japanese food with colleagues

And I fulfilled my dear Christy's request and bought three big bags of tidbits full before I leave for my break... LOLX..
And it is kind of a happiness to shop without looking at the price at all..

Specially for Angelia - Loackers, Ritz cheese crackers and marshmellows... She said I am very sweet but if I were a guy, she will still not marry me as her husband must be at least 175.. hmmm.. LOLX

Specially for my Baobei Agnes - Rochers, Oreo and Hello Panda...

I know my ex-partner Christy can eat anything so this box overflowed with tidbits is under her care.. HAHA

Now on (12 midnight), I am going to starve and wake up earlier than my usual working days to reach NUH at 8.30am and also to be notified at the eleventh hour that I cannot claim because I am with the company for less than one year. "-_-
I really feel like swearing sometimes.

Received very sweet messages from my dear Secondary clique... Hazel, Xixi, Kelvin, Joey, Limin, rubber... My family are really concerned also... So is Ah Sun, ah bee, my darling, angelia, angel, qiang, yixiang, kenny, yewei... Kemmy, Christy, my baobei, Colin, Violet... Thanks for all the encouragement! : )

Get it done man...

2008-06-08T01:28:00.003+08:00

Recently I spend my money with both my eyes closed. LOLX
The K with Ken and Lia was pretty high; especially towards the end we actually sang all English old school songs - from Backstreetboys to Westlife to Spice Girls to Atomic Kitten etc. HAHA
Reminds me of my Secondary school days, singing with Kelvin and Joey and now my singing khakis became Kenny and Angelia.
That night it took me slightly more than half an hour to walk from my house to Yishun Safra. “-_-
I did not expect it to be so long and far.

Back to work, as expected I have got tons to clear and I have not finish much yet.
And I broke down again on Thursday night and Friday morning.
Angelia saw it this time.
I find it really hard to control my emotions nowadays which I hate it the most.
Christy, my ex partner, became the top record to see me cry.
Think of it, I know her for barely a year and she saw me cry the most. Gosh! The statistics is really scary.
The good news is I finally tendered my resignation on Friday but I will be working till the end of July.
Hope that all of this is going to be over soon!

My liquor is here... and it is so gigantic... "-_- Wonder when will I get to try this.. haha

Exams is over but there's still unfinished bis...

2008-06-04T16:00:00.002+08:00

I was so excited last night that today I will complete all my papers but I feel very depress now.
Hopefully, the k later with Kenny and Angelia will carry on smoothly so cheer me up.
Well, yes, both my papers are done.
My target for A for Mathematics and B for Economics seem to be gone.
But not really because of my predictable grades that made me so upset now.
I cleared my papers and thought everything is finally over and then realize I still have so many unfinished businesses.
Life still goes on, I know.

Anyway these two nights I stayed over at my uncle’s place and was really grateful to their considerate hospitality. (From my grandma, Uncle Derrick and Uncle Long)
Uncle Derrick helped me open the door, make sure my room was air-conditioned (all of them seldom switch on the air-con) etc.
Uncle Long, although never say much, but he always asked if I need the computer etc. This is his condo actually.
My grandma, cute lar, although I have much difficulty speaking proper Teochew to her, she will always come and talk to me.
The first morning she asked me if I want breakfast, I told her no need and she caught me red-handed buying breakfast downstairs. LOLX
This morning, she did not ask me and she bought bee hoon for me. LOL. That is the only type of breakfast she will buy, expected. HAHA
And they helped me pair the keys to their house even though my dad has it already.
I feel quite weird to be the only grandchildren with the keys. (Though I am the eldest grandchildren in the family)
But still, I am very touched.
But what can I do for them? Sigh.

This was my "study table" these two nights.

There was a mattress for me but I prefered the sofa which was exactly 1.5metres (how I knew?) because it is exactly my height and I fit perfectly inside. LOLX.

I woke up on the first morning and saw a miracle!! A beautiful sunrise... 7am...

Dinner and Dance 2008

2008-06-01T14:37:00.003+08:00

Here I am again, distracted from studying.
Initially I dread to go for the dinner and dance but it turns out to be a pleasant event because it was really fun and high especially with the company of Angelia. : )
Thanks for going and be my partner for the dinner!

She looks gorgeous in Angel’s dress right? HAHA
The whole of yesterday I only had dinner, so I was really famished by the time the dinner came.
The food was okay, and the standard of Meritus Mandarin’s banquet has improved tremendously.
But we were not really concentrating on eating; we were so enthusiastic in the games and programs.
Angelia and I were practically so high, shouting, clapping and laughing.
Maybe the tiger beer did work. [Just kidding, I only drank a few sips but Angelia drank a few glasses.]
We took tons of photos also.

Agnes and I... Isn't she pretty? HAHA

This sexy lady here got a handsome guy from Fixed Income to come talk to her. HAHA
I guess makeup and dressing up does the wonders.
The youngest four in the department.. HAHA
Credit Secretariat crew from the past till now...

To conclude: BNP Paribas’s Dinner and Dance was fabulous. And the company is certainly rich especially when you see what the lucky draw prizes were. The door gift was a 1GB Imation thumbdrive by the way.
After that we were still high but do not want to join the Mambo night in the ballroom, Agnes, Colin, Christy and I went to Khandi Bar to drink.
Colin was really nice to send us all home.
And I vomited after I reached home! Gosh! I swear I was not drunk at all though I drank three quarter of the two jugs of house pour we ordered. HAHA
I guess it was because I did not eat the whole day.

The night before, SHE, Yixiang and I went for a late night movie - Narnia.
"-_- Angel was so high... HAHA... Was really pai sei as Yixiang drove all of us home.

Oh well, back to mugging. I am so nervous for exams.

Scared~

2008-05-30T01:45:00.001+08:00

I know I should not be losing concentration at this peak period.
Compared to people like Kenny and Grace who have less time to study, I should be guilty for wasting my day.
Well, I am stressed up, seriously.
I kept unintentionally pressurizing myself to score for my exams, to pray that the doctor on June 10 will only remove half of my thyroid if not I will be on long term medication, to wish that after June 10 I will not lose any ability to eat, drink, sing, speak like I can now, to hope that I could resign smoothly and find a better job after that, to plead God not to keep giving me hard times etc.
I am afraid. I kept lying to myself and to people that I am not scared but I am, especially when the day draws nearer.
My mum kept emphasizing that one can die but cannot fall sick theory.
And now, my family is thinking of moving to a smaller apartment.
It is not up to me to decide because I am still unable to take over as the sole breadwinner now.
Thinking about being the sole breadwinner makes me thought of what one of my uncle said which worried me.
And if I do move house, I will be sleeping alone. Note my main point, it is not about having my own room, it is about sleeping alone which I have never done before for the past 20 years.
Another bad thing is I have to clear and pack my stuff so as to fit in.
The thought of it already freaks me out! OMG how many days will it take me?! HAHA
The good? More privacy when my guests are here (play mahjong, sleepovers, drink)? I can decorate my room?
Anyway, nothing was finalized yet. Just imagining.

Other May 2008 events

2008-05-27T13:15:00.003+08:00

I have not started anything yet, been stoning in the morning and I just want to blog before everything.
This will be my longest entry, I suppose.
It started with the lunch with Kest and Angelia at Ethan last week.

Followed by the steamboat dinner on Friday night with my colleagues before I go off for my break.
Well, they did not ask about my intention of the dinner so I did not say much also.
But it seems to be my last dinner with Colin as he finally tendered last Friday.
Siew Chin also said that she is transferring out of the department even though not sure when it will be.
And soon, I will follow next. : )

Back home, full and tired, I continued to plan the treasure hunt with Angel.
We slept for less than three hours before we met and headed to Sentosa for the preparation.
And it was fun!! HAHA
I was so proud of myself for completing the whole three hours hunt with them without eating lunch.
Initially I expected myself faint or fall out of the team halfway through but my perseverance did work even though the symptoms of fainting is there!
So TWENTY stopovers all around Sentosa (Siloso Beach, Palawan Beach, The Merlion, Images of Singapore, Dragon Trail etc.) and the pictures tells the story…

Organisers checking in to Sentosa...

Answer to the first clue... Locker 62.. HAHA [Clue 1: What is the bus that Yixiang takes during his Poly days? The number of the bus is the locker number...]

Setting off after obtaining the second clue... Heading to Dolphin Lagoon..

Trying to think who is the waitress that they should get the clue from... (which is me as I have done a lot of waitressing before)

Getting the clue from Angelia after singing the advertisement song to her for the slogan of this beer "Probably the best beer in the world"...

Floured because Qiang sang the wrong advertisement song initially...

"-_- Safety Officer hiding in the shade and resting... HAHA

The stopover where they took the longest time to find... We walked up and down the forest so many times.. lolx..

After cleaning up and everything was finished...

The cutting cake session at Vivo's White Dog Cafe

End of celebration... His gift was an ipod classic anyway.. Happy 21st Birthday Qiang!

Well, yesterday was my final work day before my leave.
But I was crying from 8plus onwards until 11plus in the office. [I just realize it is three freaking hours.]
Seriously I feel that the department is using Christy and how long can all this carry on.
Then the pre-operation checkup at NUH was another depressing activity.
Economics was boring because no close friends were sitting beside me.
I am not saying Grace is not good, she is really nice.
And I am still coughing all the way, unable to sing a proper song.
Just let me fade away~
I am still troubling whether to help him or not.

Just a bit stressed up

2008-05-14T00:38:00.001+08:00

Monday – The new environment
At first I thought since I could even doze off in class, when I reached home lying on the bed, I could sleep right away.
I closed my eyes but I frowned.
Loads of thoughts gushed into my mind [why I cannot cope with work and studies at the same time, why I keep harming people, why I cannot quit now, where do I get the money after I quit, can I pass bridging, she moved on and I am very happy for her but at the same time envy her, why I cannot be up to the standard like her, why am I sick and still working, why I cannot find anyone to talk to in such wee hours (everybody has their own problems), why i always have so much responsibilities, why i always have so much difficulties taking mc and leave etc. etc.]
After struggling for half an hour of pumping questions into my head, I sat up straight and my bed and started crying like a three year old kid.
I really mean a three year old kid. [Go and observe how they cry for someone to notice them and you will understand.]
After 15minutes of crying like a baby, my mind went blank for an hour until I concussed.

Conclusion: I think too much. HAHA Just a bit stressed up

Ling 21st bday party

2008-05-11T15:51:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday WeiLing & Happy Mothers’ Day!
It has been so long since we have such a handful of Black Friday members appearing at a function.
[JQK, Mad, Lia, Von, Yixiang, Jojo plus some of the other half, Peiying and Peishan]
So the pictures say it all…

And after that it is an impromptu K session at Yishun Partyworld.

Well, it was quite fun when we got high playing the competition and I was so not confident with my singing because I was sick but surprisingly my team won the guy-girl (with Qiang) and girl-girl (with Lia) duets. HAHA
Well, I still feel that Yixiang and Lia (guy-girl) and Yixiang and Ken (guy-guy) duets team sang better.
First competition
Yixiang and Lia – Ni zui zhen gui
Ken and Mad – Lian ai pin lu
Qiang and I – Ni zui zhen gui (winners)
Jojo and Peishan – Lian ai da ren (Forfeit: Kana throw by coasters)
Second Competition
Yixiang and Ken – Ni na me ai ta (Forfeit: 20 pushups plus kana thrown by coasters)
Lia and I – You ni hen hao (winners)
So I guess this will be the session of K that I yearn for with them before my operation because there will not be any rare opportunities for a second time since a handful of them do not sing.
Though I sang darn badly yesterday, I am still a happy girl. : )

Oh, I was telling Yixiang and Jack yesterday because I am so not used to see them chat so seriously and not talking rubbish.
I guess they have really matured but it is still so not them.
Usually they will talk cock and even Jojo will join in the fun. HAHA

Friday, went for dinner at TPY with Partner. [Very recommended!!]

It was her “last” day at Credit Secretariat and I was both quite sad and envy.
We are no longer partners and maybe because we have been through a lot together in this frustrating job scope, we kind of have the telepathy to help each other.
But I am very glad that she finally breaks free and moved on.
I guess if it is not for her, I am still crying everyday and I will not get close to the other colleagues in the company.
So thank you Christy!
So Monday, I will welcome my temporary new partner, Angelia.
And I really felt guilty to drag her upon this. Hais
At first my intention was to help three but I managed to save one only now and even drag the innocent one in.

But seriously, I am counting down to the day I leave this place.
Though some may feel I am too heartless to have such a plan but I really had enough.
It is really tiring especially when I keep dozing off during work, class and even happy hours.
I really have intentions of doing Full Time studies instead of Part Time.
Well, let's see how it goes for my Bridging first.

My colleagues are going to have a website to sell their handmade accessories (earrings, necklaces, pendants etc.) so trying to help them promote over here.
This is what one of them made for me.

If anyone interested, do let me know.
PS: I got persuaded to go for the annual Dinner and Dance. “-_-

My sister’s birthday celebration – Labour Day

2008-05-03T17:38:00.000+08:00

My sister’s birthday celebration – Labour Day
Yes, my sister is one year older – 19 to be exact.
And I guess this year was so far the most expensive birthday. [HAHA cannot imagine her 21st birthday]
I spent 75bucks on her gift - Levis Jeans
And then dinner that night at One Fullerton’s Palm Beach Seafood Restaurant – 150bucks
The food there was below standard but the service was excellent (especially when we commented that their signature crab was not that superb, they offered to cook again for us but we were too full to have it.)
But that dinner was quite significant as it has been awhile since our family sat down to have dinner together, furthermore with the presence of one of my uncle and my sister’s boyfriend.
This is her first boyfriend to formally sit down for dinner with our family which suddenly makes me feel this is something I have to get used to – with additional members in the family.
After that we went to Tanjong Pagar to sing K, which I must emphasize again (LOLX), their genre of songs were so different and I only sang less than 8 songs (no kick).

I was chatting with Angel just now and we talked about how amazing fate is.
Whenever I talk about this topic, I will tend to get touched very easily especially when I feel so bless to have so many wonderful friends around me.
Just like how Angel describes every single person in our clique with one word, with different characters coming together to make a story of our life.
Those memories, even though they have past, but still whenever I thought of them, it will bring a wide smile across my face.
Every time when I smile to myself in the office, my colleagues will be very puzzled and say that I am crazy.

Talking about my colleagues, I want to complain about my partner. HAHA
She keeps laughing at my new fringe and remarked that I look damn nerdy. LOLX
Indeed, I know I look younger (Kemmy says I looked like a 13 year old) but it is cute okay. HAHA
Hmph everyone likes to tease me for everything I do. HAHA
Just like last night when I played the memory game with Qiang and ZhiJian.
We covered all the mahjong tiles and tried to match the pairs out while waiting for Kenny to return.
When Kenny came back and joined the game when the tiles are almost finishing, he still can win me.
Gosh! I have got nine pairs (half of them is the guys hint me where is it one LOLX) and he has got ten.
I know I am so hopeless. LOLX fine!

But I know even though they may like to make fun of me or scold me, they are still very concerned about me.
All of them are taking very good care of me, whether in the dark or with those small little actions which they thought I do not know.
Comparatively, sometimes I feel that the things I can do for them are so little and often I knew I created a lot of unnecessary troubles for them because of my stupidity.
Well, over the years, I knew I have grown up and changed to be more independent and strong though it may not be enough.
Okay, I think I really say too much today. HAHA

Eve of Labour day with BF

2008-05-01T15:28:00.000+08:00

The eve of Labour Day – Clubbing with Black Friday
This is the first time I got so high and dance till like nobody’s business at a club. HAHA
I even kissed Angel and Angelia, and I was hugging both girls to dance. [LOLX I feel so man]
I guess that two tequila shots, the pop and 2 jugs of alcohol really got the effect plus the others are equally high also.
But the second half when the crowd is getting packed, when my feet are aching and I start to get tired; I fell asleep at the dance floor again.
I guess I was gone again yesterday [as the others kept catching me when I nearly fall] but still sober.
Well to conclude, it is so fun! HAHA
I yearn for more : )

Last weekends of April 2008

2008-04-26T10:57:00.003+08:00

I kept struggling everyday this week whether to tender the second time or not.
How I wish I could disregard the consequences and the foreseen chain effect to the people around me when I quit.
I realize after half a year with my partner, there is a very special bond between us which makes us be concern of one another, making sure the other party does not get affected.
Oh well, I had swallowed everything down every time when I complained to quit.
Counting down to end of May where my long breaks will start or should I say it is the beginning of another misery – EXAMS and you know I know.

I am really amazed by my selfishness this time round.
Little did I expect that I would follow his footsteps to do what he did to the other party.
But I understand perfectly that I will be very reliant and lost if I did not do that.
Hope that my decision is right.

Steamboat with Charlene and Agnes last night at Mosque Street.
I did not know that Charlene's BF is a caucasian. HAHA so cool right?
Furthermore, she is so pretty and elegant.

Eunice's farewell dinner on Thursday night. Another colleague leaving. Hais.

This is what my partner drew on my bottle. "-_- A pig and a cat-look-alike rabbit. HAHA. I shall not display what I drew for her. LOLX

No mugging weekend

2008-04-20T18:31:00.003+08:00

I have no energy to mug this weekend.
Darn tired now, maybe I shall try mugging later after dinner.

Jacintha's 21st Birthday Party
I was so amazed and shocked when her mother called out my name when I step out of the lift.
After almost a decade, she still remembers me.
Anyway, her new house is as big and special as her old one.
Luckily Hazel went too, if not I would be so bored as I am the only representative from Primary School.

During Maths class... Could not breath properly because there was no ventilation..
So I decided to sneak out of class for fresh air..

And I got a free Canon Ixus950IS camera, all thanks to Starhub Cable TV :)

My parents finally also decided to change my spoilt tv to this... (after one year of surveying "-_-)
Finally I do not have to hit the tv to get clear images anymore HAHA

This is the laptop that Uncle gave it to us when he knew that I decided to further my studies... So sweet of him... Even though at first I hoped that my mum rejected his kind offer because you know my character but this laptop was delivered to my doorstep.. so... Thanks! I still like it. ^_^

This was what my bo liao Baobei (Ms AK) did..
It was pasted everywhere on my desk when I came back to work one morning.

Something cool that I found in Angel's room... HAHA
She told me it is copyright. So NO STEALING!!

Tagged

2008-04-18T11:48:00.002+08:00

TAGGED

Rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves
3. At the end of the post the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, than goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they done got tagged and to ask them to play and read your blog

5 Things I was doing 10 years ago
Studying at Chongfu Primary School
Monitress of my class
Score As for my Maths lessons and borderline for my Science lessons (HAHA)
Crush on my classmate (LOL)
Carrying a mountain (bag) to school and singing all day long with my song book

5 Things on my To-Do List today
Work 8am to 5pm at BNP
Economics lesson at 7pm
Listen attentively at class
Revise my work before lessons starts
Book appointment for haircut tomorrow

5 of my bad habits
Indecisive
Lazy
Too anything
Too stupid
No confidence

5 places you lived
Yishun since 1987

5 Jobs you had
Sales assistant, Gramophone
Waitressing, Jeju Korean Restaurant
General Worker, Motorola
Pro-officer, Bnp Paribas
Customer Service Officer at Habourfront Centre, Mapletree

5 people I tag
Debbie
Dorothy
Ah Sun
Hazel
Weiling

Angelia tagged me

Lunar

2008-04-15T08:54:00.002+08:00

I guess not many people will understand how meticulous I am when it comes to my favorite music.
Little do I know that the premonition and prediction that I have which became reality actually affects me so greatly.
But I am proud of myself for not bursting out when I nearly did especially before Angel reached Lunar.
After she reached yesterday, all my attention was on her and I forgotten to be sad for myself.
But I think others will find me weird to be upset about such a minor thing. (Only singers can understand how I feel.)
I am not afraid or worried that it may turn out to be cancer as the doctor says chances are pretty slim.
Although I strike 4D once before, I believe I am not that “lucky” to get that.
Furthermore, I am blessed with all the people that are concern about me. ^_^
Just that I am disappointed with myself that I have to spend money on operation and hospitalization again. ARGH!
And this will be the fourth scar on my body, moreover in such a prominent place! LOLX
My hopes of marrying out can come to an end already! LOLX (Just kidding)

Ouran High School Club

2008-04-13T11:02:00.002+08:00

I am rotting at home now because my colleagues do not let me out to go cycling, shopping and k-ing with them.
Okay, I know I am sick so I shall not be willful and to rest at home and rot. Sob~
I thought everything was fine after eating the medicine doctor prescribed to me last night so I continued my plan to mahjong at Kenny’s place.
Then after winning 40 bucks, I just slept. LOLX
Anyway the doctor tells me not to eat too much eggs and milk.
TSK! I love eggs leh! Haha.
I have been dozing off and sleeping all day everywhere in my house today.
I feel so weak now, later I shall go downstairs for a walk to refresh some energy.

My partner introduced me this Japanese Animation which is very funny – Ouran High School Club.
I rate it 4 upon 5.
Watch it here

School is really unbearable, especially my “favorite” Economics lesson.
I nearly skipped lessons last week because it is just too dry and boring.
At that moment, I miss my dear sisters.
If Wei Ling is there, at least I can skip one or two lessons halfway through or I will still stay on because if she not skipping lessons, I will hardly skip also.
If Madeline is there, at least I have someone to study with and to explain to me when I am lazy to think or too stupid to understand.
That is how I pass my Polytechnic and that is why I feel that this must stop.
I cannot always rely on others while studying so now I am forcing myself not to skip lessons because I need to understand and mark attendance when others are relying on me.
My darling says I am putting unnecessary stress on myself, which I know at times, it is really pushing my limits.
But still, I believe I can do it. ^_^

Next Saturday, I am going to attend one of my Primary school friend’s 21st birthday party.
I accepted the invitation straight away without asking who is going and it seems that I am the only one. LOLX
It is okay; I do not need company but of course if there is it would be great also.
Whao! Almost a decade since we left Primary school.

MOS recap

2008-04-06T16:00:00.000+08:00

Whao it has been almost one year ever since I stepped into Singapore’s club.
The last time I club was in Bintan with Ken and Mad.
And I cannot believe I am so exaggerating that I even can sleep while standing and dancing. HAHA
I thought that sleeping while playing mahjong and using computer is scary enough already.
I admit old because after 10minutes of dancing, I cannot stand the crowd and the music.
That means I have not been updating with the English RnB songs for ages.
Anyway, maybe it was also because I wore the wrong footwear last night, some more my ankle still hurts.
After Kenny left, Mad and I hang around at Kandi bar, chatting.
Sorry darling, nowadays keep rejecting you to go out and meet you.
The cab driver who drove us back last night happened to be one of my Secondary classmate’s Father.
What a coincidence and it makes me even guiltier to say that other than my Secondary clique, I have not been keeping in touch with my other friends.
I remember I used to be very active and enthusiastic to keep in touch with all my friends.
But I guess it is very difficult now as my contacts seem to have vanished.
Work and school again tomorrow, the cycle just continues.

Pictures...

2008-04-04T23:38:00.002+08:00

Please don't ask me why did I sprain my ankle. So embarrassing. HAHA.
And yes, it is my right foot again.

This was one of my dinners before going to school...

And I have no more space to put pictures in my office.. LOLX

I realise that my pencil case from Poly was so empty, I wonder where did all my stationaries went to.. So I went to shop at SIM's Popular and fill them all up.. HAHA
So happy! ^_^ Got discount somemore...

Neoprints with Christy and Agnes... (Not very pretty but still memorable la)

Start of something new

2008-04-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

This was what time I reach Raffles Place MRT station yesterday.
I was early because I woke up at 6am.
But I am darn shag, HAHA.
I worked till 1pm and proceeded to NUH for some examination.
Do you know how the doctor did it?!
He poked the needle into my neck and started digging in and out for my cells. *Ouch
*Curse and swear* It cost 135bucks after government subsidy (i.e.300plus)
I was kind of traumatized and went home drop dead, rested for half an hour.
Then proceeded to SIM – my first day of school - Economics lesson.
I was late even though I left home at 5.40pm.
Anyway, I still conclude that I HATE ECONS! (Note: I was this module’s rep in Poly)
Comparatively, Mathematics lesson today was much interesting.
Even though I have learnt all these in my E & A Math lessons in Secondary and I was so confident that I knew how to do, but I still fail to remember the basic concepts.
LOLX! Sorry Mrs. Chin & Mr. Eddie Chua, I am so embarrass to be your A student.
Think I have to dig out my notes to practice harder. HAHA
*Wonder* Where have all my Mathematics genes go to?
P.S.: I am not bragging because this is the only subject I can score. HAHA

And I hear a very faint wedding bell lately.
Love that sound especially when it is from my friend! HAHA
My colleagues say that I worry too much because I actually followed them to the Yue Lao Temple to pray for my other half to come soon.
Even the in-charge in the temple says why I am there at such a young age? LOLX
Okay, I admit I KS. Typical Singaporean ma. HEHE

Togi Korean Restaurant

2008-03-29T11:19:00.003+08:00

I blame myself for being cursed, wasting money on medical fees which is not under my control.
Well, as expected, the doctor cannot deduce anything and referred me to the hospital but I do not understand why this time round he is so anxious to get me an appointment there.
So Monday will be an extremely tiring day when everything clashes.
[Month end, start of 8am to 5pm work, start of university and now this]

I am not feeling fantastic at all – too many disappointments.
Some I feel I shall mention it no further.

And I actually can feel the difference between colleagues and friends now because the priority they set is different.
Of course I know there are exceptions where colleagues can be friends too because I treat all my colleagues as my friend even though they may have different idea.
And that makes me suddenly thought of what Kenny said before – friends, colleagues and affiliations.
To me, it makes no difference as all of them are my friends and I trust them.

I went to eat Korean food last night but not at my boss's place. Oops!

The 6 side dishes which I feel is average

The Kimchi soup there is not thick enough

The Pork Bulgogi still lacks a bit of taste

This is something new which I never try before - Spicy Ramen and Rice Cake
Very special taste and not bad...

This is my favourite dish last night.. I forget what is it called but it is the first dish on the menu.. haha

Conclusion: The place is crowded and the food is not bad.. Portion is quite big also.. Price wise, it is cheaper than my boss's place..

Another place I went for dinner a few nights before...
Nonya Buffet at Bugis - 13 bucks per person (dinner)

That stretch is the food. Yes, very little variety. So it is not recommended for guys with a big appetite. I tried all the food there and I stopped eating. LOLX.

And I kept waiting today...

2008-03-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

When was the last time I am on medical leave? Cannot remember
Hope that god will forgive me for not consulting the doctor earlier (I know it has been months) and give me a positive result on Friday. (Just like two years ago)
It is not that I am afraid of injections, blood test etc.
I am more afraid of the results actually.

Anyway, I spend the whole morning today in the Polyclinic and the whole afternoon at SIM.
I am darn tired, even more tired at work because of all the stupid waiting time.
I waited for two freaking hours and I still did not consult the Room 15 doctor.
In the end, it was the Room 14 doctor who has finished his consultations much earlier and came to help on those frustrated waiting patients.
After that, I waited for another freaking one hour for my blood test.
Why did I do all these when I already got the referral letter to Tan Tock Seng Hospital?!
For a cheaper cost of course!!! Compare 19bucks (Blood test AND consultation) or 140 (test ONLY), which one will you rather pay?
And I really spent another two hours waiting and consulting at SIM to get my application half done and fees paid.
I need to go down to Orchard for the last application form (which I think is a very stupid procedure) done because I did not read the instructions properly. HAHA
And I think I am the only fellow who does not know.

Bridging is starting next Monday and I guess it will be another two years battle.
I had really bad dreams lately. Please don't scold me!! :<

Crazy idea for 21st

2008-03-23T16:50:00.003+08:00

I have a crazy thing that I want to do on my actual 21st birthday.
I want to call up a list of people that I knew from Kindergarten until now to chat with them.
(*laughing) I know it sounds absurd and not appropriate because some may not even remember who I am and some may think that I want a birthday gift from them.
Well, I feel that as long as my intentions are good, I need not purposely portrait any good image in front of them.
Who knows, it may turn out to be a very beautiful day for me.
But I guess the first words from my poly and secondary clique when they receive the call from me will be “CRAZY”. [You guys better pick up my call that day!]

It seems that I have quite a lot to do this year.
Apart from studying a degree, aiming to save 10k and find a better job, there is something more that I desire to do now.
Stay in a chalet. (Not for any occasion or my birthday)
I just want to wake up the next morning, go cycling and rollerblading.
At night, do some simple barbequing and chilling with my friends.
And I want to try the Singapore Skyflyer, I believe the scenery should be amazing up there.
And I have yet to learn knitting and make my own sushi.

Good Friday should be good right but ironically it seems to differ.
Maybe because I could foresee that I screw up all my plans made that day and I really did.
Throughout the BBQ, I kept really quiet and stayed close to the pit and be the chef of the day.
My colleagues were very concern but sorry, it wasn’t the right day for me.
But no matter how apologetic I am, I guess I could not change anything that had happened.
I may not have deliberately done all that and perhaps I just suck at arrangements.
Looking at how I am always late for everything planned.
But that night was still a little consolation for me.
My tiles were pretty good that night even though I still lose 25bucks.
HAHA or maybe it was because I made Kenny lose his voice.
Though I felt pretty bad but it is still funny. =X LOLX

Mad and I went to the Video Ezy warehouse sale at TPY Safra.
And I bought these 3 movies for only 32bucks.

A walk to remember VCD [2bucks] - A very nice love story although it may be a bit boring but I still like the storyline.

Take The Lead DVD [15bucks] - My favourite dance movie

Hoodwinked DVD [15bucks] - Why did I buy this? LOLX. Em... Maybe because I feel that this movie although stupid and pretty lame but it is worth remembering in some ways.

Good Friday

2008-03-21T01:51:00.003+08:00

Sometimes it is really amusing to see how those immature adults fire each other with emails that seem pleasant but are obviously sarcastic to the max.
Well, I deal with all these almost every day whether I am in the cc list or to list.
[Even when I am just a messenger or middleperson]
The corporate world is such an interesting entertainment circus.
My colleagues said I have been trained so harshly that they now do see me rejecting to help people and firing back people with my attitude problem.
But seriously, I dislike what I am now.

And I am so money-minded recently because I suddenly have to settle school fees in the future.
I seriously am puzzled why she made the change of plans so abruptly.
It caught me offhanded and that means I cannot lose the current not-so-bad income I have now.
Okay, although my savings now (plus those I loan out) are not-so-bad also but in that case, I can never hit my 10,000 bucks savings by the end of this year.
Sob~ let me strike lottery HAHA [Provided I buy some]

Oh yes, I finally went to sing k after so many months of efforts to organize one.
But it was super tiring as only two of us went to sing.
Furthermore, we keep picking difficult songs for each other to sing, even when we sang duets, we are waiting for one another to go off tune or lose voice. HAHA
I yearn for more, especially with more participants. ^_^

BBQ at night later with my colleagues at Changi!!
Anyway Happy Birthday Dad!

Agnes's grandfather's chicken rice - available at all Food Republic Chicken Rice Stall

My acceptance letter from SIM UOL.. The fees are darn ex sia..

My lunch yesterday - cooked by my partner's mum

My BNPP organiser

YEAH!! I watched it just now again.. haha..

A very cute traffic light that I saw at AMK just now..

Anyone of us (stupid mistake)

2008-03-13T23:22:00.003+08:00

It can happen to anyone of us
Anyone you think of
Anyone can fall
Anyone can hurt someone they love, hearts will break
Cause I made a stupid mistake
It can happen to anyone of us
Say you will forgive me
Anyone can fail
Say you will believe me
I can’t take my heart will break
Cause I made a stupid mistake
A stupid mistake ~

Well, yes I made quite a few stupid mistakes lately.
Actually I should declare I have been continuously making dumb decisions throughout my 21 years of life.
You may wonder what the current status of my resignation is.
Many would believe I finally step out of this misery.
But sad to say, I did not and I committed myself into further misery.
There were too many conversations and offers until I lost my way and forgotten all about my intentions of resigning in the first place.
I gave up the chances of moving to another job scope to my partner (because I fear I could not commit long term and waste their efforts) and promised to stay on to my current scope accepting an 8am to 5pm proposed work.
WHAT HAVE I DONE?! Sigh~
And so, she won again because she manages to retain two staff.
She was so stuck up when she received the fourth letter (for more details, you may ask me) and she went on playing mind games with us.
The more I reckon, the more I feel amiss.
JOANNE, PLEASE FIX YOUR MESS!

Bridging is starting and I have more sighs.
Not looking forward to anything now.

My dinner last night when I was feeling upset - Sukiyaki

This is our dessert - 1 large fries, 1 curry sauce, 3 garlic chilli, 4 sweet chilli, 10 pepper

Colin's cute monkey keeps going around the department

My treat for my colleagues

My partner acting cute

Hazel's textbook - very interesting book and I am going to read it.. HAHA

Why is this not mine? haha.. cute right this tissue paper?

Weakling

2008-03-08T11:57:00.001+08:00

I tendered yesterday. (I really could not stand the job anymore.)
BUT, I got persuaded by my VP to stay for another one month.
And all of them (my colleagues) say that I am weak.
Pissed! Why can’t I be firm enough?!
ARGH!! But I really cannot stand people using those ke lian look to beg me.
My VP did, that is why I agreed.
But I know I will be suffering for being soft hearted. Haiz~
I deserve this man.
The bridging course will start on the 31st March.
[Monday to Wednesday and Saturday 7pm to 10pm]
I am died man.

TRUST

2008-03-07T10:38:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I feel that TRUST makes you stupid.
TRUST makes you do silly things without thinking.
TRUST might hurt you deeply and makes you lose everything.
Therefore, beware of TRUST.
He is nobody’s best friend.

Batam trip

2008-03-02T15:36:00.006+08:00

Not in a very good mood lately.
I did what I should but I still get myself into trouble and eventually it will end up being my fault.
Maybe I am just not vigilant and smart enough.

Oh yes, I went to Batam yesterday with my colleagues.
Well, it is a day’s tour and I must comment it is not suitable for youngsters.
We visited two Chinese temples which I sincerely went to pray to every Buddha statue.
I was super excited when I finally saw a Confucius Temple (especially when I am taking a degree this year).
The seafood lunch provided sucks, the Bintan one was so much nicer.
We also went to the biggest shopping mall in Batam but if you are really into branded goods but you do not have to money to buy a real one, you can go there.
Almost every single shop there sells fake branded goods.
I bought a fake LV bag for my mum for 200,000 rupiah. HAHA
I had no choice; there was nothing to buy there except for their famous Kueh Lapis which is 150,000 rupiah and you MUST spend all your rupiah if you are not going to Indonesia anytime soon because every 5 years when they reelect their president, they will change their currency and the old ones will all expire. [Crap right? Haha.]
The thing that I like about this trip is I get to experience something different and an overseas trip with my friends is very memorable too.
I took a lot of pictures of the place there, Batam is still developing and the places where we went to are quite kampong and run-down.
So everything is very special and new to me.
I just hoped that I could really get off the bus and take more interesting pictures.
(Examples: their hair salon, their so called 7-eleven, their S$3500 bungalow, their so called San Francisco Bridge etc.)
The bus travels too fast so I could not capture the interesting things that I saw.
(Okay la, actually I admit I am a bit slow.)

These are the photos I took...

Part of the San Francisco Bridge of Batam...

The seller on the bridge... They said I love you to my partner.. HAHA

See the motorcycle behind, there are a lot in Batam selling food and drinks...

The shops over there are all beside the road...

Some examples of houses for the locals...

This sign is interesting...

My partner's friend Meiting who is born on the same day and month as me...

LOLX.. the founder of SG Credit Secretariat.. My ah zhou.. Da Niu...

My partner...

Agnes and me...

Felicia and her daughter Ying Jie.. very cute right?

The group picture..

Cos I have a bad day~

2008-02-28T23:56:00.002+08:00

I guess this will be a long entry because I have not been updating.

Well the scary Monday is over and it is not scary after all.
Surprisingly, she did not flare up when she received the two letters and I must say we have been really kind to her as initially it should be four letters.
When the first letter was presented to her, she calmly says she has expected it and encourages my colleague to move on when a better opportunity is here.
The second letter followed by and she calmly accepted it and asked whether it was deliberately planned.
The next day, the heads including her started to persuade the more experience one to stay.
Contradicting but I could understand how she felt and kind of sympathy her despite the bad impressions which were accumulated.
She did put in effort after all to improve herself but I think the scars were too visible to make it hard to pretend its existence.
Oh well, we must move on.

Anyway, today is really a bad day.
My partner kept complaining that I have attitude problem lately.
Indeed, I have. HA!
I was so pissed off to get scolded by the driver who nearly knocked me down at the zebra crossing.
I was so pissed off liaising with the people from the SITE because they always refuse to cooperate.
I am so sick of emails shooting here and there and I kept losing the battle when I tried to retort back.
Argh, last but not least I made a mistake today.

Well, here comes the story…
My partner has an appointment so I waited for the minutes on behalf for her.
[I am in-charge of regional files while my partner does local files.]
The minutes that came down first stated “Happy ABC Ltd AND ABC Ltd”.
Coincidentally, these two files’ meetings are on the same day, one after another.
So logically I will think that both of them belong to a group as the files are always grouped in this way.
When I was about to send the two proposals and minutes out, another minutes came down and the person told me to send both urgently and not to mix up.
After I finish sending the first package, I looked at the second minutes and it states “ABC Ltd”.
I shall stop here, those smart readers will understand what shit I am into now.
Even though both files are sent to the same people for approval, the problem here is the two files belong to two different relationship managers.
And being in this scheming corporate world, the two relationship managers may steal each others’ clients when they look at the other parties’ proposal.
I welcome more scolding and complain tomorrow with my open arms. WTH!

My parents at Carlton Hotel's Wah Lok Cantonese Restaurant. The food was quite good but I think Crystal Jade's dim sum is cheaper and nicer.

Mandy and I... A little shopping at bugis that day...

The gifts that Colin bought for us at Hong Kong... The princesses includes Snow white, Mulan, Beauty, Ariel, Cinderella, Jasmine and Sleeping Beauty.

I chose my favourite princess - The Little Mermaid

My lame partner refuses to return the chipmunk to Colin because she says beauty needs to match with a beast. HAHA...

Old school songs~

2008-02-21T23:28:00.002+08:00

Talking about old school, it would definitely be my Secondary days.
Well, after doing the videos for them, I realize that we have almost known each other for 10years...
OMG! 10 years of close friends!
Anyway, I really love those genres of English songs and I only got in touch with English songs during my Secondary days...
What made me listen to them? During my Literature lessons, we were to perform an English song and I failed it thoroughly.
This song was and is still my favorite - O Town's All or Nothing
(Although I kept saying I hate this song because it is very irritating when my best pal kept singing it to me)

What else? Of course common ones are like Westlife, Plus One, A1, BSB, Michelle Branch, Christina Aguilera, Britney Spears, Blue etc.
Especially the boyband Blue, we love to sing their songs.
Not forgetting the number one song - Lady Marmalade...

Nervous~

2008-02-20T14:05:00.001+08:00

Talking about studying, I am getting nervous, especially for a Degree.
Apart from Mathematics, I really suck at those memorizing and common sense subjects.
First and foremost, I understand things much slower than normal humans, which reduces my speed to memorize.
Oh well, so I guess I have to work harder than others to get the results, provided I remove the lazy bones from my body. HAHA

I am craving for liquor, especially Tequila shots.
Ling~ give me your bottle. HAHA
And I am going to Batam with my colleagues on the 1st March but I will be back by evening.
It is just a day’s trip, hope that it is going to be fun.

The birthdays...

2008-02-18T20:06:00.003+08:00

I was on leave today because I predicted that I will be super tired.
My prediction was right (I slept for only 5hours for two nights).
Finally, all the events are over.

Friday, after knocking off at 9pm, I played mahjong at my place.
Then I slept for 3.5 hours and woke up to meet Jack to go UOL to register.
Continued doing the gifts until dinner time, met my mum relatives to eat.
After that went to Jack house until I fell asleep at 7am on his computer desk while making the video for Limin.
Those three idiots slept so soundly on the bed.
Left his house at 9am and went straight to Serangoon gardens to meet Shevon to get the flowers.
After that, went home and bath and out again to meet my Secondary friends.
We surprise Hazel at her house (HAHA) and all she can say was “Zen me ban” because she wear till very sloppy. [Silly girl]
Her dreams come true - Flowers & Album (Postcards) & Davidoff perfume

People present at her place

These pictures shows how Hazel tried to "rape" me. HAHA.

We took a picture together as usual.

Then she suddenly kissed me on the right.

And she wanted to kiss me again on the left but I refuse. LOLX. So she grasp me, refusing to give up. I tried to escape and crawled till the wall and there is no way to escape. haha

So she kissed me in the end...

Then all of us went to surprise Limin at Macdonalds where she is mugging with her fiancé. (Yes, I hear wedding bells.)

Oh well, finally everything went on well.
Even though I was extremely wear off, but I think all my efforts are worth it.
Happy 21st birthday Limin and Hazel!!
It took around one month plus for me to plan and do these two person’s birthdays.
And I kept complaining why they must be born in the same month. HAHA
[I bet July will be worse.]
We had real fun videoing and making the handprints game for Limin’s gift.
I recapped a lot of memories when I went around to places to take pictures for Hazel’s postcards.
And I had lots of help from these people: -
- Mad (To design the postcards)
- My partner (To make the album)
- Shevon (For the flowers for Hazel)
- Yewei (To liaise for Limin’s surprise)
These 3 postcards out of the 21 designs, which I love the most.

We will excel is my school's motto

I was so tempted to stay on because of the bonus that foreign bank pays but I still do not wish to screw up my studies.
Job searching starting again soon...
Hope that I will enrol and graduate from UOL successfully!

After the long CNY holidays

2008-02-10T17:00:00.000+08:00

Well, the long holiday is almost over.
I only went to three houses this year. [Pathetic]
My whole day one and two went on as I proposed.
In between I had two mahjong sessions which I lost 83 bucks in total.

Anyway, the three movies I have watched are all moderate.
Surprisingly, Kungfu Dunk seems to be funnier than CJ7 and Ah Long PL when the later two are comedies. [Contradicting]
When I watched Kungfu Dunk, it feels as if we are really watching a basketball match.
When the team strikes, the whole cinema clapped and cheered. LOLX
I am definitely not kidding.

I am getting this show... Rated 9/10 because Jay Chou sua bao even though the storyline is so-so. Enchanted was 10/10 and I am waiting for the disc also.

Rated 7/10. Storyline so-so. But CJ7 and the kid is very cute. The most disgusting part was when the father and son compete in killing the xiao qiang.

Rated 6/10. Just Follow Law was so much nicer in terms of storyline and laughing elements.

I am waiting for a movie to start now – The Forbidden Kingdom
Both my favorite action heroes Jackie Chan and Jet Li are inside.

I wonder why nowadays the US likes to re-act ghost stories from Thailand.
First it was “The Eye”, now they are screening “Shutter”.
Maybe they ran out of ideas for good scripts. HAHA

Scenary from my grandma's small sky garden...

Can you see the sunlight passing through the clouds... Looks like heaven...
I really like this house but too bad it will not last long. This is my target! haha dream on.

My grandma (trying to hide from the camera) and gugu

My small uncle and dad trying to take photos of my grandma... When my uncles get together with my dad, they can be really childish and playful.. Unbelievable..
The cousins outing to watch the CJ7 and Kungfu Dunk.. Quite fun actually..

My new L'arc heels which initially cost around 120bucks each but I bought it at only 36 each (70% off)...

Proposed CNY agenda

2008-02-06T23:38:00.000+08:00

In less than an hour’s time, it will be a brand new lunar year.
Yesterday, after more than 5 months of waiting, we finally went to sing.
It signifies how much I actually miss singing with them and both of their singing is really not bad now.
I have been enduring, trying not to complain so much and satisfying the k craving myself.
Happy! : )
At last, I do not have to keep hallucinating.

This year’s CNY may be as boring as last year’s.
The steamboat just now, we have no more abalone, shark’s fin soup, yu sheng, curry chicken etc.
Tomorrow, I will only have to proceed to my granny’s house because my great grandma just pass away not long ago.
But I guess my family will be going to the cinemas to watch “Ah Long Pte Ltd”.
Then CNY day 2, after visiting my mum’s relatives, at night my cousins and I will be marathon two movies – Kungfu Dunk and CJ7
Then I guess that will be the end of CNY celebration.
So this year, my dress theme is – lok kok [HAHA]

I hope to hear the wedding bells.
I hope not to hear any more partings.

BNP Paribas would like to wish you a Happy Lunar New Year!!

2008-02-01T17:22:00.000+08:00

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Entry with the most photos posted...

2008-01-31T00:22:00.000+08:00

I understand that they do not want to hurt me and chose to tell me a white lie.
I understand that they do not want to hurt me and chose to tell me the truth.
I understand that at times, I knew it was a white lie but I chose to escape the truth.
I understand that at times, I knew it was the truth but I chose to escape reality.
I understand perfectly that I am actually one of them too.
Maybe I am just another selfish and self-centered human.
Following my own principles and not knowing that others may not agree to what I do.
I can never satisfy every single person.
I only believe that you may do me wrong, but I cannot be bad to you because how you want others to treat you, you should reflect it in how you treat others too.
Karma - something which is never missing in your daily life.
Okay enough of preaching.

HAHA Wu Gui Darling, I purposely posted this for you to see. My new toilet door...

And this was what happen to my 20th birthday gift from Dad.
I was laughing none stop when I had to wrap this up with my mum because I feel so bad wrapping it up like a mummy. HAHA And to prevent it from dropping off my cupboard, we had to put a hair clip there to act like a stopper.

OH these are my new cupboards, neat right?

My new bags.. Love it so much because they look so man!

My new T-shirts lately...

The biggest ashtray I have ever seen!!

My company's new decoration - I just cannot help laughing because it looks like the entrance of a chinese restaurant...

I bought my piggy bank. The frog (left) one is mine. I wanted to find my sister's piggy bank (right) but cannot. No choice only left with the stupid frog one.

The belt I bought for dad when he got jealous of mum. LOLX...

Tired Genting trip

2008-01-26T11:25:00.000+08:00

People may envy that I got a short getaway to Genting last weekends.
But let me tell you, it totally sucks.
First and foremost, I barely slept because I could not sleep at all.
The bus trip on the first night, I slept for only one hour plus.
Secondly, I fell ill – vomiting, stomach ache, and diarrhea.
And because of that I could not try the Free Fall and Rollercoaster and only manage to watch Cloverfield for less than an hour.
Thirdly, not much to see, play, do and food are expensive.
While my friends go to the casino or sleep, I was roaming around alone but it is really boring.
It is freezing there but I still like the weather.
My next plan trip with my colleagues in March – Batam day trip

The new rollercoaster ride which i did not try... Hmmmmm..

The clouds that flood the whole place and super cold and foggy...

The Free Fall that I did not try also..

Their K Box. LOLX... Singing in a box... 2 bucks per song..

My two roommates.. Agnes and Huizhen...

My stupid partner who keeps sleeping and gambling... HAHA

Why do I find it so hard to be less leech-y?
Okay last time complaining, I really miss all of you! Sigh~

I just realize this year is going to be a super duper brain cracking year because I have so many 21st birthdays to organize.
God please bless me. LOLX
Anyway IF I am going to have one party for myself, I bet the theme will be “Old School”.
I know it is common but I just want to see everyone in the school (Chongfu, Girl Guides, YTSS and NYP) related clothes.
Okay, I know it is crazy and nobody will follow what I say. HAHA

The Funeral

2008-01-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

Two days compassionate leave, I attended my Great Grandma’s funeral today at Hougang.
With 6 generations, 87 descendants, she pass away at the age of ninety-one last Friday.
I was amazed on the figure because I know almost none of my relatives there.
I had to wear the assigned green (5th generation) hat and belt which made all of us look like those selling Japanese food.
This is the Teochew’s practise, very different from the Hokkien’s ones which I attended a few years back for my maternal grandparents.
I look damn comical, luckily only my colleague Felicia saw it.
[She was the representative from my company and the only person I knew who came.]
Anyway, it was the first time I saw my grandmother cry today when we send my Great Grandma off.
It was then that I feel the urge of crying, I know I am slow.
But I manage to suppress it. Sigh, going back to work tomorrow!
And Friday I will set off to Genting with Agnes and my partner.
I will be back on Sunday, so I guess I will only be back to blog next week.
Both of them and the whole bunch of strangers who have already turned 21 are going to the casino.
Great, so I am going to find some other programs because I refuse to stay in the hotel myself.
Very scary can! Haha! Maybe I shall go k or watch a movie there.
Okay, I will be back people!

LIBRA - The Lame One

2008-01-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

LIBRA - The Lame One

Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind.
Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique appeal.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
However, not the kind of person you want to mess with, you might end up crying.
Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent.
Faithful friends to the end.
Can hold a grudge for years.
Libras are someone you want on your side.
Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics.
Kinda dumb at times. (not true! HAHA)

Isolation starts...

2008-01-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

I have changed. Or have I?
Compel to isolate.

I am a tree with mischievous roots.
When I feel secure and loved, my roots will hold firmly to my new residence.
But when environment changed and cut off my roots, I was forced to move.
Repetitively, my roots lessen and never grew.
My feelings seem weaken.
Too much, I will be more cautious.
I think it is best to isolate.

My dream job?

2008-01-13T19:37:00.000+08:00

Your dream job is to be an Ambassador

Sales representative? No way. Chemical engineer? Not you. With a big heart and a natural knack for smooth-talking, there's no doubt that you could go head-to-head with Angelina Jolie for best humanitarian. Whether you're smoothing over a fight between feuding friends or solving the stickiest of situations, you somehow manage to keep even-keeled under the heaviest of pressures. That's why the perfect job for you would be making sure that people all over the world are happy, healthy, and safe.And while there may be a lot of competition on the international stage, this world could still use all the caretakers it can get. So make sure to take your heart wherever you go! Believe it — no matter where you work, your coworkers will be glad you're there.

A test I did in some website...

Pissed!

2008-01-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I really can freak out when I got shocking news from drivers like JoJo, Ken and Jack when they nearly or really meet up with an accident.
Unless I really got a reply from them that they are okay, I will be very worried that my heart just cannot stop the fast beat.
So far I guess Da ge is the safest driver.
Phew, I bet I can drive safer than them. HAHA
Okay, kidding. But I am really happy that they are okay.
Thank God~

ANGRY! ANGRY! ANGRY!
I was very pissed with myself for agreeing to change my hairstyle and worse, to rebond.
Now I guess I will be stuck with this hairstyle for several months.
Seriously I still prefer the previous hairdo though it is difficult to maintain.

Seriously I need a job if not I will be broke soon.
Why is it so difficult to find a not so bad job with a not so bad pay with a good boss? (At least it sounds difficult for me)

Turn over a new leaf

2008-01-05T09:47:00.000+08:00

Another Black Friday...
The discussion of new procedures (again) turned into a counseling session and then to a fierce debating battlefield.
I was brainwashed for a second time, feeling that it was because I failed to do well and even considered to give this job another chance until the fight broke out between my VP and my partner.
Throughout, I kept silent, lost for words as I know the more I say, the more ~~she~~ we will lose.
I suck at diminishing fire and I hate more not able to save my friend from getting burn.
FYI, the whole conversation lasted for two working hours.

The cold wind was blowing on my face (and mind).
I was listening to the slow soothing new songs by Angela Zhang while pacing back on the 15 minutes’ walk home from the train station.
I went into deep thoughts and attained some enlightenment.
I was drawn too deep into the picture which I failed to see the overall picture, too lost.
I abide and obey too much that I kept following behind people’s path, forgetting that I have paved my own route.
It is time to turn back and do it my own way.

Matured a lot, although I can never predict how much I will follow what is listed on my 2008 resolution because I can foresee myself going off track again when I get influenced.
And to reply to my darling, the “books” on my ninth resolution actually refers to books that will enrich my knowledge.
I got this inspiration when I flipped through my lecture notes the other day and realize that I forget what I have learnt especially when I am guilty that I did not study at all during my schooling days.
But of course, like what I mentioned earlier, it is pretty hard to be consistent.
Well, give me a chance to turn over a new leaf.

A brand new start

2008-01-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my 2008 blog! (My wugui darling said this skin is ugly.)
To start off my fresh new beginning, I shall blog about my must dos in 2008.
1. Learn to blade
2. Learn to make sushi
3. Get a new and better job
4. Save till a 5 digit amount (impossible, I know! HAHA.)
5. Start and/or finish clearing my Polytechnic fees
6. Get into a University and study hard
7. Go for a holiday (The Genting trip on the 18 January is not counted)
8. Exercise regularly, eat more fruits, drink more water
9. Read more (newspaper and books)
10. Have a Happy 2008 (No more crying, no more relying on others and be an independent woman)

I am darn tired (all the sleepless nights) and sick. Yesterday went to see the Fireworks at CWP, supposedly with my family.
In the end, I was the only one standing there looking at the spectacular fireworks while they just sat in Cavana to eat.
Oh well, it seems that this is the first year amongst the past 3years I did not countdown with Hazel.

And I miss school badly.
I was clearing my stuff into the two new cupboards we bought after my mum’s naggings saying I have the most rubbish at home.
I flipped through my lecture notes (I still keep them because I find it really useful) and I sigh because I don’t remember any of the knowledge.
Darling says it is not the school that I missed, it was the people.
Colleagues and friends are really different entities.
I am still too green in the complicated competitive corporate world.

The first day of 2008, I read The Straits Times. (Though it actually took me hours to finish reading)
Determination and perseverance! I can make it!