I understand that they do not want to hurt me and chose to tell me a white lie.
I understand that they do not want to hurt me and chose to tell me the truth.
I understand that at times, I knew it was a white lie but I chose to escape the truth.
I understand that at times, I knew it was the truth but I chose to escape reality.
I understand perfectly that I am actually one of them too.
Maybe I am just another selfish and self-centered human.
Following my own principles and not knowing that others may not agree to what I do.
I can never satisfy every single person.
I only believe that you may do me wrong, but I cannot be bad to you because how you want others to treat you, you should reflect it in how you treat others too.
Karma - something which is never missing in your daily life.
Okay enough of preaching.

HAHA Wu Gui Darling, I purposely posted this for you to see. My new toilet door...

And this was what happen to my 20th birthday gift from Dad.
I was laughing none stop when I had to wrap this up with my mum because I feel so bad wrapping it up like a mummy. HAHA And to prevent it from dropping off my cupboard, we had to put a hair clip there to act like a stopper.

OH these are my new cupboards, neat right?

My new bags.. Love it so much because they look so man!

My new T-shirts lately...



The biggest ashtray I have ever seen!!

My company's new decoration - I just cannot help laughing because it looks like the entrance of a chinese restaurant...

I bought my piggy bank. The frog (left) one is mine. I wanted to find my sister's piggy bank (right) but cannot. No choice only left with the stupid frog one.

The belt I bought for dad when he got jealous of mum. LOLX...

People may envy that I got a short getaway to Genting last weekends.
But let me tell you, it totally sucks.
First and foremost, I barely slept because I could not sleep at all.
The bus trip on the first night, I slept for only one hour plus.
Secondly, I fell ill – vomiting, stomach ache, and diarrhea.
And because of that I could not try the Free Fall and Rollercoaster and only manage to watch Cloverfield for less than an hour.
Thirdly, not much to see, play, do and food are expensive.
While my friends go to the casino or sleep, I was roaming around alone but it is really boring.
It is freezing there but I still like the weather.
My next plan trip with my colleagues in March – Batam day trip


The new rollercoaster ride which i did not try... Hmmmmm..

The clouds that flood the whole place and super cold and foggy...

The Free Fall that I did not try also..

Their K Box. LOLX... Singing in a box... 2 bucks per song..

My two roommates.. Agnes and Huizhen...

My stupid partner who keeps sleeping and gambling... HAHA

Why do I find it so hard to be less leech-y?
Okay last time complaining, I really miss all of you! Sigh~

I just realize this year is going to be a super duper brain cracking year because I have so many 21st birthdays to organize.
God please bless me. LOLX
Anyway IF I am going to have one party for myself, I bet the theme will be “Old School”.
I know it is common but I just want to see everyone in the school (Chongfu, Girl Guides, YTSS and NYP) related clothes.
Okay, I know it is crazy and nobody will follow what I say. HAHA

Two days compassionate leave, I attended my Great Grandma’s funeral today at Hougang.
With 6 generations, 87 descendants, she pass away at the age of ninety-one last Friday.
I was amazed on the figure because I know almost none of my relatives there.
I had to wear the assigned green (5th generation) hat and belt which made all of us look like those selling Japanese food.
This is the Teochew’s practise, very different from the Hokkien’s ones which I attended a few years back for my maternal grandparents.
I look damn comical, luckily only my colleague Felicia saw it.
[She was the representative from my company and the only person I knew who came.]
Anyway, it was the first time I saw my grandmother cry today when we send my Great Grandma off.
It was then that I feel the urge of crying, I know I am slow.
But I manage to suppress it. Sigh, going back to work tomorrow!
And Friday I will set off to Genting with Agnes and my partner.
I will be back on Sunday, so I guess I will only be back to blog next week.
Both of them and the whole bunch of strangers who have already turned 21 are going to the casino.
Great, so I am going to find some other programs because I refuse to stay in the hotel myself.
Very scary can! Haha! Maybe I shall go k or watch a movie there.
Okay, I will be back people!

LIBRA - The Lame One

Nice to everyone they meet.
Their Love is one of a kind.
Silly, fun and sweet.
Have own unique appeal.
Most caring person you will ever meet!
However, not the kind of person you want to mess with, you might end up crying.
Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent.
Faithful friends to the end.
Can hold a grudge for years.
Libras are someone you want on your side.
Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics.
Kinda dumb at times. (not true! HAHA)

I have changed. Or have I?
Compel to isolate.

I am a tree with mischievous roots.
When I feel secure and loved, my roots will hold firmly to my new residence.
But when environment changed and cut off my roots, I was forced to move.
Repetitively, my roots lessen and never grew.
My feelings seem weaken.
Too much, I will be more cautious.
I think it is best to isolate.

Your dream job is to be an Ambassador

Sales representative? No way. Chemical engineer? Not you. With a big heart and a natural knack for smooth-talking, there's no doubt that you could go head-to-head with Angelina Jolie for best humanitarian. Whether you're smoothing over a fight between feuding friends or solving the stickiest of situations, you somehow manage to keep even-keeled under the heaviest of pressures. That's why the perfect job for you would be making sure that people all over the world are happy, healthy, and safe.And while there may be a lot of competition on the international stage, this world could still use all the caretakers it can get. So make sure to take your heart wherever you go! Believe it — no matter where you work, your coworkers will be glad you're there.

A test I did in some website...

Sometimes I really can freak out when I got shocking news from drivers like JoJo, Ken and Jack when they nearly or really meet up with an accident.
Unless I really got a reply from them that they are okay, I will be very worried that my heart just cannot stop the fast beat.
So far I guess Da ge is the safest driver.
Phew, I bet I can drive safer than them. HAHA
Okay, kidding. But I am really happy that they are okay.
Thank God~

ANGRY! ANGRY! ANGRY!
I was very pissed with myself for agreeing to change my hairstyle and worse, to rebond.
Now I guess I will be stuck with this hairstyle for several months.
Seriously I still prefer the previous hairdo though it is difficult to maintain.

Seriously I need a job if not I will be broke soon.
Why is it so difficult to find a not so bad job with a not so bad pay with a good boss? (At least it sounds difficult for me)

Another Black Friday...
The discussion of new procedures (again) turned into a counseling session and then to a fierce debating battlefield.
I was brainwashed for a second time, feeling that it was because I failed to do well and even considered to give this job another chance until the fight broke out between my VP and my partner.
Throughout, I kept silent, lost for words as I know the more I say, the more she we will lose.
I suck at diminishing fire and I hate more not able to save my friend from getting burn.
FYI, the whole conversation lasted for two working hours.

The cold wind was blowing on my face (and mind).
I was listening to the slow soothing new songs by Angela Zhang while pacing back on the 15 minutes’ walk home from the train station.
I went into deep thoughts and attained some enlightenment.
I was drawn too deep into the picture which I failed to see the overall picture, too lost.
I abide and obey too much that I kept following behind people’s path, forgetting that I have paved my own route.
It is time to turn back and do it my own way.

Matured a lot, although I can never predict how much I will follow what is listed on my 2008 resolution because I can foresee myself going off track again when I get influenced.
And to reply to my darling, the “books” on my ninth resolution actually refers to books that will enrich my knowledge.
I got this inspiration when I flipped through my lecture notes the other day and realize that I forget what I have learnt especially when I am guilty that I did not study at all during my schooling days.
But of course, like what I mentioned earlier, it is pretty hard to be consistent.
Well, give me a chance to turn over a new leaf.

Welcome to my 2008 blog! (My wugui darling said this skin is ugly.)
To start off my fresh new beginning, I shall blog about my must dos in 2008.
1. Learn to blade
2. Learn to make sushi
3. Get a new and better job
4. Save till a 5 digit amount (impossible, I know! HAHA.)
5. Start and/or finish clearing my Polytechnic fees
6. Get into a University and study hard
7. Go for a holiday (The Genting trip on the 18 January is not counted)
8. Exercise regularly, eat more fruits, drink more water
9. Read more (newspaper and books)
10. Have a Happy 2008 (No more crying, no more relying on others and be an independent woman)

I am darn tired (all the sleepless nights) and sick. Yesterday went to see the Fireworks at CWP, supposedly with my family.
In the end, I was the only one standing there looking at the spectacular fireworks while they just sat in Cavana to eat.
Oh well, it seems that this is the first year amongst the past 3years I did not countdown with Hazel.

And I miss school badly.
I was clearing my stuff into the two new cupboards we bought after my mum’s naggings saying I have the most rubbish at home.
I flipped through my lecture notes (I still keep them because I find it really useful) and I sigh because I don’t remember any of the knowledge.
Darling says it is not the school that I missed, it was the people.
Colleagues and friends are really different entities.
I am still too green in the complicated competitive corporate world.

The first day of 2008, I read The Straits Times. (Though it actually took me hours to finish reading)
Determination and perseverance! I can make it!